sat morning. and i haven done any thing. not in the mood to study. i on-ed the com and stared at the monitor wondering what i can do. it's so boring or rather i got bored of all these stuff. waking up then study. nth gets into my head anyway so why study.zz..i wonder whats wrong with a maths. iand i think i'll fail it man. it's so complicated la. now theres still a trigo un-learned. sometimes i really wondered how some can lead such an enriching life with new and interesting things to do everyday and wake up with a smile each morning. i need a change of life.it's 11.44am now, someone tell me what i shld do. perhaps i really shld study but the holiday's gone in a flash and i din really revise much. ''ask me bout anything and i'll ans everything'' somehow this din apply even after so much of slogging. nth gets done when my mind is so occupied. maybe i'm just being paranoid but when time and again things prove so discouraging, i wonder what keeps me going on. get out of my mind when i'm tryin to do some bit of studying.i just went into maplestory and checked. nth changed. it's boring. yet i dun wanna lose it. my tibia account i'm fuking rich down there. but this paranoia always set in whenever i try to play it. what if others killed me and i lose my stuff. i quitted the game as usual. i'm not suitable to play pvp-enforced games. i just realised. talk bout playing. i haven really been playin alot. i always tried to study whenever i could but i just couldnt focus. either my mum would be nagging from behind or i would be tempted to get some snacks frm the fridge. this cant go on.i wan admission to a gd jc of my choice and i wan achievement in my cca. but right now everything just seemed so tough and unreachable. i cant study at home. not being to concentrate= might as well dun study. so maybe i'll study in sch. when sch reopens. zhihong's still out and even if he recovers by 2 mths, he would still missed lots of training and we would lose an impt player.i'm just typing all this coz i dunno what else to do. it's 12 noon already and the sun's not hot. i would rather exchange all this time of using the com for some time with my friends. i always wondered how they are kept happy every moment. maybe i'll be a vegetarian like rocket and see. lol. ok one more time. imma try 1 more time to get a bit of a maths done. c'mon give me some motivation. bye and cya. take care whoever u are.why shld i care about all of u when u all dun even care.imma live life my way.Guorong. posted by GuoRong Saturday, September 09, 2006 . . .
