can! marathon was awesome. at least i found it so although there really weren't a lot of people who attended.

played badminton till it was time for us to do the non-competitive run. it was kinda silly though, i really ran the full 30 mins with shermaine. we ran 12 rounds, so that adds up to like all of us from badminton running 180 plus rounds together! and shermaine can really run la!

so, after that, jason and i went to play badminton. haha! oh, it was really quite cool last night, there were people playing basketball, tennis, soccer, table tennis, badminton, netball, captains ball and touch rug and practically all the sports through the night la. yeah, so anw, after playing with jason, my legs were really sore, so shermaine and ether was nice enough to rub my knots off because i had to run again at 5am, but the moment they rubbed, my both legs cramped at the same time! yeah, then for the rest of the time, i had to limp around.

and so i did limp around to and fro sports com trying to find something to do to kill time and feed myself. and so i landed at mr loh's truck eating his mother's cooking. and they were really nice, the fried noodles and green bean soup. i couldnt go and play netball or basketball or anything else with them cause of the cramps, and i was kinda worried bout my 5am run; i saw the basketballers run beforehand. it was bad. weiyang was feeling really bad after 2-3 rounds.

so, in the end my phone battery went flat and i went to join sherm, ether and shirleen to chat around and pass time. we went from the hall to the stage at sports com lying under the sky. it was so nice to sleep la. yeah, but it was cool talking to them too, because we have common topics and we've been through a lot too. and shirleen said she had a good impression of me when she first saw me. i dont know if thats a compliment though, because it sounded like she doesnt have a good impression of me now. LOL. and we talked bout our future, how shirleen wants to be a housewife and take care of kids while all her classmates are aspiring lawyers and doctors. haha!

and they asked if i would want my wife to stay at home or work. lol, i would want her to do what she likes, because if i have her as my wife, it'll mean that i like the way she is and i know they way she will be, so i'll prolly like what she decides, work or stay at home. makes sense right. woah, model answer. hahha! and they said my wife will be an arts person, not sports person. and i'll go with her to concerts. haha, i dont know how they could tell all these things la.

then we talked bout the team and badminton and a whole lot of other stuff. by then, it was time to run alr, kirk couldnt run and bozhong and soccer boys were asleep by then. so we only had 5 people in our team to run 1 hr. -.- lucky we managed to find some more people to help us. really wanna thank zhiyang, bojun and weihao. they were super innocent and i had to rope them in to help.

so in the end we each ran like 4 rounds each. our 5-6am slot wasn't up to the 50 rounds per hour target though but there really werent enough people to run. it was heartwarming to see that, people came forward to help us seeing we didnt have enough people and even sherm and ether ran. the floorballers came to help and there were few others who came to sub us for 1 or 2 rounds so we can rest while longer. it's all these lil things that really show what the whole spirit is about. random tjcians just offering themselves to contribute to this college record.

after us, were the 3 basketballers plus netball team. and just like the rest of the slots, there were kind souls who stayed around to sub too. track team was imba. each of them ran below 1 min for each round. and i think that helped make up for the time lost in other slots la.

then we went back to join bird and weiling, who were asleep already by the time we finished our hour. bird did wake up though, then we just talked for a bit, before going over to play badminton till floorball training starts.

bojun and i were walking to the sports com to shower. then we saw a lot of people chionging during the last hour. we heard that we were short of 600 and left like 15 mins to go. so we went over to look see look see. and we saw all the people were really worn out alr, they gave their best for one round and it doesnt look like they can do one more, so they were looking for fresh people to just run one round each to race against the time. and so i got asked to run too. woah, and i was damn proud of it k, coz i really ran and strode and everything for the whole round and i think that round was really quite fast. LOL, had to keep going on la, theres like people running with me all the time, rachel, gwen, debbie and gang. and so many people shouting and mrs loke and all the company who ran together the night before. and the song playing was ' i dont wanna miss a thing' how cool is that la.

but in the end, we managed only 599 rounds, didnt meet our target of 600 rounds. but we did surpassed the previous record of 455 rounds! the last hour was the killer, i think we covered more than 5o rounds in that hour alone. i feel ashamed to use 'we', because out of the 599 rounds, i ran only 5 and there are people like issac who ran 13. lol

ok, then after that, good kokwei bought back macs for me. oh, and i left my plastic bag of worn clothes beside me while eating, then after i finished, i went up to the hall to get our bags. beside our bags, there was a packet of clothing, but it didnt belong to kokwei too. so i threw it away. then i was just leaving when i felt bad, that maybe someone else wanted it back badly. and if it's me i'd rather the person leave it where it was so i can find it. so i retrieved it and put in back in the hall. then i left for sports com and left my plastic bag of worn clothes at the marquee!

i only remembered when i got home and checked my bag, my sportsxcel shirt was inside, so i was realy worried. i remember walking around marquee with andre to sell coupons and i dont recall seeing it at all. called bird and auntie to help me find, though i didnt have high hopes of getting it back alr, but they called and said it was still there at the marquee.
now how coincidental is there, karma at work i suppose. lol!

ok, super tired now, good job zaiyou and team for the marathon. i made so many more friends and talked to a lot of people i've seen but never interacted with. i guess the lack of sleep made me talk a lot of nonsense while waiting for my turn to run. and that helped.

thats bout it all. but there was someone missing that night though, and i hope she's found and she's alright.

posted by GuoRong Saturday, May 30, 2009

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i want a really long good night sleep because i think it'll prolly take some time for me to get to sleep. and i want ice cream and candies and chocolates and all the sweets to make me feel better than how i am now.

stayed back in school to do comprehension presentation and we wasted quite some time talking bout their girlfriends, and interrogating oliver on his. so anw, the gp passasge was on cloning. and i tell you, life will suck with cloning. jj will prolly get 12 lin dans on their bench and and so will all the other schools. so in the end, we'll have to toss a coin to see who wins what, and move on. or they can all play scissors paper stone they way i like it. nationals interschool badminton tournament can be thus named nationals interschool scissors paper stone competition. ugh, i'm ~. so forgive me for all that crap. nvm, i never really spoke anything really insightful anyway.

then again, it'll be cool to be perfect. tall, dark handsome, smart and all the wonderful things. but then again, it'll prolly only work if theres no one else who's perfect. -.- and that being said, the whole idea is nonsense. we'll all be perfect people living in this imperfect world trying to make it perfect and in the process compromise the sanctity of life itself.
you are unique, just like everyone else. thats how it really should be. i'll feel like a worm if someone go gets this kinda thing and beat me in every aspects when theres actually not much to speak of already. i hate to lose, totally.

alright, all this crap aside, i met phay key on the way home, and lucky i did slacked around with shermaine because i didnt feel like walking home alone. the ache-inside kinda sore will prolly eat me up before i have dinner. so lucky phay key saw me and shouted/shrilled (shrilled will be more appropriate to describe her tone of voice) and asked if i'm going home. so i had company in the end. and it helped that she had so much to complain/praise herself to me and that kept me really occupied during the whole walk and ride. and every time we see each other, we always either miss the bus, or have to wait a good deal amount of time. she never stopped insisting it was my fault and i never really agreed that it was mine too. but oh well, just as i was telling jovan the other day, it's always, the girl's fault but the guy takes the blame.
iiok enough for the day, gotta go do a lil bit of work and sleep. i really need it.

and i need to start living the day for myself and not just get let everything blur and pass. i need to break off from what it used to be and smile at the many lil things that often go unnoticed right below your nose. and for cip, i really want to bring the kids to the zoo and do something meaningful. ii know things change, but i thought some don't. alright, going to sleep on it and everything will turn out fine tomorrow.

and it's so funny that auntie and bojun knows so many of my primary school friends and it's so interesting to learn from them, what happened to my friends.

winky/wenkai. i know you'll prolly never read this. but just to relieve myself of all that i'm feeling for you. apart from (u), theres really nothing else more apt to tell you how i felt. take care and i guess it will really take some time for everything to settle down and reality to set in.
quoted from jovan: such is life.

posted by GuoRong Wednesday, May 27, 2009

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i cant believe i was even more tired today when i had slept an hour more last night. -.-
it was really hard trying to pay attention and the day kinda died during double physics in the morning in the humid lab. and it's funny how u tend to fall asleep even more easily when it's warm!

and elisa, if u're reading this, i'm so sorry your card's taking this long to come!

chem spa's on friday, i almost forgot. lol

a million and one things to do with a million and one people.

posted by GuoRong Tuesday, May 26, 2009

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finally had my napfa today. didnt went too bad nor did it go as well as i wanted it to be. fell short of target for run. but at least it's one thing off my mind! had to lie down/ slept/ rest in the marquee after that for like 2o mins la. was super dizzy and headache. yeah but i still managed to drag myself home.

saw shanmin on the way back and she helped me saved like 1.20 on bubble tea. i was just bout to buy when she called out to me. so we walked instead. hahah!

anw, i think i really need to be more disciplined because theres like 1001 things to do everyday! but right now, i think i need to sleep earlier every night and not die in school. but the people in school keep me awake. they are so weird/funny/sweet and what have you. all sorts of people in school.

dont hate yourself, because you'll make those who love you so much look really stupid.
you go figure it out`

posted by GuoRong Monday, May 25, 2009

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shirleen with nat!
dillon and nat.
them with me!
i wonder what she's doing!
band concert! shermaine, huimin and szeling(auntie)

charlene, jerald, samuel and gang in action!


jason the bus driver.

bojun, my lover. no amanda, he's not cheating on you behind your back. he did it openly.

digging his nose.
vanessa.
auntie with sunflower.


band concert was awesome and so are samuel, charlene, jerald, vanessa and lynette the funny friend. the skit by the year ones was really good!

dont understand why my phone camera's good at times but blur the next! other photos with the rest of them!

posted by GuoRong Sunday, May 24, 2009

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i got to be a stand in nanny for like 45 mins with shirleen just now during badminton barbeque. nat and dillon are so so cute luh. they are mrs goh's kids by the way! we played swings and ponies and ran round the playground and chatted. and they wanted me to push them on the swings, hahah, sorry AUNTIE shirleen!

and yeah i think shirleen's right, we all ought to be the kid in us again sometimes. it feels so much better. because swinging on the swing is all it takes to get you smiling again. seeing nat and shy dillon smile and laugh and hopping around really made me feel like a kid too.

i'm sure dillon will grow up to be a handsome boy, afterall he has got a lot of suitors already according to mrs goh. but he said he only likes 2 of them. hahah, how cute la!

and natalie or nat, who's in just primary one told me she plays catching and dog and bone during pe. and she already knows what 'cheesy' means at the age of primary one. when i was primary one, i was playing soccer all day long la.

nat loves to swing high and dillon likes it low.
and i'm their superman.

lovely kids.

posted by GuoRong Saturday, May 23, 2009

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it's distracting, this cycle of highs and lows which seems to loop every few hours. and it's ever so intimidating that time left merely counts down to six more months ? besides the usual anxiety bout the 'biggest examination of your life', it's scary that 6 more months, and thats all your have left to be with this bunch of people thrown into your life for 2 years. no one knows for sure what happens after that.

but anw, today was just another up-and-down day, not that i've had lots of them anw. so i managed to push my napfa to next week, depending on how long i take to be well enough to take it. chem test was ~. it didnt go as well as i expected, but i'll learn from it when it comes back tomorrow. and for the rest of the lessons, i hope something did go into my head.

came back home, slacked for a while, while copying chem lecture notes from the matrix before i decided to go shoot some balls. but it started to drizzle the moment i reached the basketball court -.- and then it rained.

and i'm so glad i did my tutorials the other day. really tired today, so am gonna rush through the achievement write up before i turn in. it'll be a loooooong day tomorrow too. badminton barbeque at night.

time's so short that we really need to squeeze the best out of every moment and make it count. and i'm having trouble deciding how best to use it. but anw, life should be amazing. but for now, i need to go, for i know it wouldnt be amazing if i dont get enough sleep tonight. ugh.

i'm going out to do you back whatever you did to me. you give me your heart, i'll give you mine.
happy birthday shanmin. and thank you sweeleng.

posted by GuoRong Thursday, May 21, 2009

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i dont know why i'm doing it still, but i'm doing it anyway.

the things not within my control, i dont understand but,
ouch*

posted by GuoRong Tuesday, May 19, 2009

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grey skies,
white lies,
wet eyes.

posted by GuoRong Monday, May 18, 2009

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i dont know what to write, but i think i should write something down.
it's another long weekend again, monday's a holiday. but it looks like another weekend of studying again and i think things will really get boring for the rest of the months when all you need to and have to is studying.

and it's scary how this one time off examination at the end of the year, or rather just 6 months time is going to be the last and most important exam ever. i don't want it to be another one of those scenarios filled with all the what ifs and i-should-haves. i've had a tad too many of that. then again, apart from preparing real hard for it, there doesnt seem to be an alternative.

but THEN again, it's stupid the way numbers and figures make the world go round. and that so much time is spent on pursuing this paper qualification which drains all the fun that revolves round just simple pleasures of life. the pursuit of the straight Aces complicated everything.
life could have been so much easier had we not attempt to make things complex.

and i guess thats why it is so much more important that we find joy in the things we do amidst this monotonous and mundane storyline of studying and more studying everyday. how to make it seem better, i dont know though.

then again, i get by by telling myself how i'll be spending the time all the same whether i make good use of it or not. of course making use of the time will seem like the more logical option, most of the time. looking at sallies, talking nonsense with everyone, slapping daryl when he sleeps during lecture, playing basketball when i can afford it, watching people, looking at how things go, observing charlene and jerald, having to be included in part of the hc convo reluctantly as a bystander, trying to understand why huimin is the way she is, how everyone reacts to her, thinking how mrs leong sees me, smiling at all the wonderful people who bother to say hi by the corridor..

theres so many things i do in school. they keep me sane from all the monkeys, insensitive people, cynical people, shit that happens, and everything bad u can think of.

sometimes i dont even know why i'm doing all these for, going to lessons and doing my tutorials faithfully. i dont even know where all these will lead me to. and it's so lol/-.- when u see the person to your right joking with the teacher when the teacher comes round to check our work and that he didnt prepare his tutorials. and it's even more amazing how the teacher can laugh along with him and just walk past him after scanning through his paper filled with answers copied from the board and apparently not prepared. i'm not really that sure about the world is fair logic now.

but then again, there really is nothing i can do except to continue doing my part. even if i dont get duly rewarded when the tests come, i cant really go back home and blame my parents for not making me that fantastically smart right. the harsh reality hurts so much sometimes, when you see that the 70 odd marks isnt on your script but on the script of the person to your right and especially if you think you deserve it so much more.

the same goes for badminton and everything else. here we are fighting like dogs on the streets, but the bone goes to the pampered puppies in the house. alright, i cant exactly say i'm being fair to them, MAYBE they did put in effort too.

sometimes, i think i'm really that good. and thats when doubt will set in at the next moment. no wonder they say when you feel unhappy it means that happiness is on the way. i'm tired in every way, and when day breaks tomorrow, i'll have to start studying again. it's crazy how the first thing that comes to mind is what subject to do for the day and how much to do, and what to do. tomorrow, i'll make sure the first thing that comes to mind is sally. maybe that would mean a better day ahead, somehow or anyhow.

i'm not your tall, dark handsome kinda guy. if i dont meet the mark, u can leave me alone.

if you want to go fast, go alone.
if you want to go faster, go together.
i saw this on one of the walls along the corridor. i dont like to take things too fast, maybe going alone would suffice. slowly but surely, slowly but surely.

alright going off. one whole long page of stuff, i feel much better after typing all the random things.

posted by GuoRong Saturday, May 09, 2009

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it's scary how everything is passing by so fast. and the way you know things will come really fast, before you know it. long weekend soon, and i shouldnt have fallen asleep just now. ugh. now i cant get to sleep, but i know i won't do well tomorrow without enough sleep. worse thing is, i still have my stuff to do.


as with all defeats, there will be regrets.
all the 'should haves', i think it's way too late now.

i badly want to do well.

posted by GuoRong Thursday, May 07, 2009

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mum's right. maybe dad's right too.
it's time to start waking up anw.

posted by GuoRong Monday, May 04, 2009

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i think i slept a lil too much.

posted by GuoRong Sunday, May 03, 2009

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