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Sunday, November 26, 2006
suddenly feel lyk blogging, so i came to blog lol. binghao here. tis wk was rather busy, perhaps play alot bah lol. i suddenly gt interested wif cosmology again. jus lyk wen i was in p sch, i rmb i used to go to e library to find those kiddy bk bout e universe haha. learn alot thou. n i found sth new on a bk too, tt a black hole acty dies thru hawking radiation. bt b4 it dies it will suck in everythng ard it ardy so dere issint any use cus if a black hole really appear ard us, den we will be gone. fm e universe totally. into whre or wat i duno, perhaps energy lol.
yup n i had reexam on thu. same paper as everyone knew alr. n i lyk did e paper e nite b4 so is lyk doing e same thng all over. abit stupid bt yeah can do well. den aft tt wen fr chalet. o did i mention last fri wento airport wif leonard to c e chiangrai ppl cme bck. acty wen out buy stuffs nia den leonard say go airport lol. bt we were late so end up go dere c few ppl den walk ard. hmm airport is indeed a fine place. cool n filled wif peaceful air. filled wif lots of memories hur. lol back to chalet. hmm was acty a 3f chalet bt it seem lyk a sports class chalet in e end except fr e netball gurls. so wen dere wif leonard n hweeli at ard 5 plus. reach dere c e ppl play x box n started playing. until 8 lol. wen dwn fr bbq n started to bbq fr e whole nite until 1 lyk tt rofl. n i duno y i luv bbqing bt i dun eat mch yup. i was standing dere e whole nite zz. aft tt wanted to go arcade bt it was close so wen back. bought drinks alot lol. den wen bck a while dey say go eat so wen mac again zz. lef few of dem dere playing x box. n aft tt again is x box e rest of e nite until daytime pack n lef zz. ate kfc b4 leaving dwntwn east. n it started raining so suay. gt myself wet. den wen hme n wen out again to ecp fr p sch gathering. wasnt v happy wif e gathering thou cus its a waste of time. wento play lan instead at nite. my first game of dota lol. nt a bad game bt dun understand y ppl r addicted to it. its jus a game afterall.
so becus of all tis i was tired n woke up late tdy, ard 2pm haha. my latest record i shld say zz. den at nite wento my ahma's bday celebration. shes 83 as old as lee kuan yew zz. n yup im trying to tok to her mre nw bah, cus i knw i shld. wore my second pink shirt i bought fm taiwan. i rmb smeone telling me tt nt all guys lk gd in pink. i jus hpe u will still be dere to tell me do i den? hmm tdy's was really a fun nite. really. i nvr felt so mch lyk a family b4. becus dere was a karoke set dere so my uncle hu loves singing brought his collections haha. all e hokkein songs n others i duno wat songs. n indeed many of e elderly sang, even my parents. everyone was high. lks lyk tis 20 over ppl big family is starting to bond mre becus of everyone's effort. n i shld say, its e first time everyone had so mch fun. im still e joker in e family cus im always e youngest. smetimes i wonder wats my true self, infrnt of my family or infrnt of my frens. bt acty being a true self is nt about wats ur real characters, bt wtr ure comfortable or nt wif e ppl even thou u may nt be tis way in other situations wif other ppl. n i really enjoy luffing wif my frens, jk wif my families n toking to e com lyk nw. althou all of dem r diffrnt 'me' , bt its a true 'me'. lol. n i saw mu cousin's gf tdy haha. she didnt tok mch cus perhaps shes still new to us bah n we didnt tok mch to her either. bt she shld be a nice person bah, cus my cousin is a nice guy lol. k so had fun fr tdy. tml is a new day so i shall plan wat i shld do again. holiday is half over n time really flys.
anw i jus changed my internet plan. n jay chou mvs r nice. random zz. my dad's bday is tml n tis is e first time i rmb it(: im getting closer wif my cousins n family nw. n becus i hav v gd cousins hu play wif me n entertain me even thou dey re adults alr. thou dey dun cme here n i hope dey do nt zz, still thx to dem. off to slp, nitez.
binghao.
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Saturday, November 25, 2006
din feel like blogging but anyway. just to thank all those who wasted like 50 cents smsing me wishes. thanks to yingqian jolene tabs weehoe weiyang tracy binghao shiling zhihong zhiyang leonard andrea joyce and xiaoqin. thanks. zhi hong, kc, leonard and binghao for the shirt.
and my csc, lost in 3rd round to sports sch. aloysious and shawn. i would say shawn is the much better one. me and leon played quite well la. lost 8 and 18. they werent that gd just that they din make mistakes. and that already is gd enough already lol
finals tml. yan long liucheng playing against aloy and shawn. think if i dun forget i shld be going it shld be exciting. looking forward to it. training would be 5 times a wk starting december if possible. 4 hrs a sessions and plus physical. it would be 25 hrs per wk gonna do all those shit and get champs for east zone. dun really wanna get myself bothered and troubled over stupid stuff. starting nxt yr. it would be studies and bmt. only. but i think i wun be able to just let it go.
were with leon these days. he shared with me bout some stuff then we discuss and chat a lil during the bus trips. my parents liked him loads. say he veh cute always laughing one. lol.
chalet was okok only. din wanted to go red house coz of some personal reason told weiyang. i dun mind staying around alone la. and it was raining so they din go afterall. they were playing the xbox. so i let them play lo since they were all so eager. so i just sat there and watch till i fell asleep. o ya we bought a watermelon back. put it in the fridge then it was cold and nice. lol couldnt find anything to open it. wanted to smash it on the ground de but we staying 2nd floor. so cannot. in the end got a knife from the girls and slice open then weiyang pry it open lol.
how does it feel like to hv went that extra mile just for something simple for someone. just for a smile. but how does it feel like to not get realised for all the effort put in, to make him/her happy. and to actually get to know that it would prolly be the same without your presence.
i'm certain death is far more horrible than ghosts. if death is the end of life then it's a great pity. and i really regretted not treasuring what i hv.
even if it's just another conversation or just a simple word.
even if it's just a simple snack she bought.
even if it's just 5 mins with her presence trying hard to comprehend what she meant.
even if it's just snacks that she bought.
even if it's just a short walk we r going for.
even if it's just dinner.
even if it's just helping mum with the chores with her.
even if it's something i dread to do.
even if it's..
...
perhaps it's just another beginning instead of it being the end. with no pain and worries i'm sure thats the best of the worst already. being able to pass on with no pain and worries, with grandchilds and great-grandchild and to hv dutiful descendants crying and mourning chanting and forgoing sleep. i guess she'll be contented already.
i thought of the times me and my cousins play at her old house. it was just a simple house of wood and no uptodate facilities. but the fun, laughter and enjoyment was way more than what maple or dota could provide me. being just nxt to nature and the feeling of being at home was way more satisfying. playing with cats and dogs, chickens and chicks, ducks and swan. there was no worries of bird flu or unhygenic for we were all strong and used to it. shall stop here. i'm selfish and these most precious memories of mine, i'm not sharing it with just anyone. for it contains my past, the creator of my future and present, my joy and sorrows and my every treasured times with my closest of kin.
for the demise,
is just another beginning.
i hope.
Guorong.
regrets filled the air
and our foots were bare.
around her we walk
head bowed and noone talked.
chants rang through the ears
she were so far yet so near.
just in front of us she laid,
eyes closed and it was all too late.
no more of her voice
but we don have a choice.
i would forgo any presents
in exchange for just her presence.
now that she's gone
we shouldn't cry and be forlorn
for she has ascended for sure
and this depart is but a mere ,beginning.
so stop all the tears flowing
and forget bout mourning.
life has to go on
and the days r still long.
one day we'll all be
together in the other realm, glee.
right now, keep her in our hearts,
quiet and reminiscing working hard.
i'm no longer afraid
for i've been through the worst at the wake
in memory of her
my tears are worthed.
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Friday, November 17, 2006
o fine. my racket cracked already. the new one. dun ask me y. so 91 bucks gone. including the stringing money and BRAND-new grip. wtf. nvm. anyway, selection for the team is done alr. everyone in sec 3 is in. yup. thats gd. and my doubles today was WONDERFUL as well. it was cool and yea. satisfactory. so now i wonder which racket i shld get. the old one feels gd like always. hmm, shall see anyway.
mum and 2nd bro left for m'sia alr. i din go coz of the upcoming matches and training. also coz of other reasons which i shan't mention. hah. ok so also not sure of what to post about shall end it off here.
dun let hatred get the better of you dudes. cya.
calm and composed.
Guorong.
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Thursday, November 16, 2006
k i shld blog, lol, was lazy dese few days lol. bing here. haha. anw gr bday cming wor haha. k so no mre bridging, nxt wk reexam shall jiayou. have been practising, maths is quite fun acty haha. n last sunday i had sudden ill. sat nite or maybe sun morning wen i was slping, den suddenly feel damn cold n kangkor. den suddenly wake up n vomited on e bed=/ yucks n it didnt ended, i cont to vomit in e toilet n den lie dwn a while den run to toilet again to vomit zz. scarly ppl thot i pregnant haha. bt is mch worst. i drink black sugar water den vomit black water zz, lyk my stomach everythng all cme out sia=x k den aft e fm vomit becum sick. giddy n fever, i cant even go dwn to c doc or stand. cant even lie dwn, lie dwn kp turning here n dere if nt will feel kangkor n vomit again zz. haih k bt tt lasted one day only zz. nxt day im almst perfectly fine. haha went out wif yp den play lan at simei lol. saw xinzi n her guide frens n i was pwn in cs rofl. bt expected, i played lyk only twice tis yr mann-_- prefer arcade lol.
o yar gr lyk haben mention bout lord jr bday e events. haha bt acty oso nth mch. wento watch the covenant. haha size doesnt matter=x LOL. ard 14 of us lol, den aft tt oso disperse diao. o yar b4 tt wento jr hse n dey bought a cake fr both jr n gr haha. so aft tt lef e few of us. i mean aft e movie. haha me gr jr leeyang weehoe kirk kc leonard. lol wento vivocity to c c. is jus a normal shopping centre which is crowded noisy n it issint tt big after all. nt enuff fr me to walk, cus i walk alot lol. but nt shop zz. bt e outside issint tt bad, bt still spoiled by e many noisy ppl. everyone is diffrnt bah. i may lyk to enjoy scenery quietly bt maybe others dun, esp those little kids playing ard. bt we were once lyk tt aint we haha. childhood... smetimes i really wonder wtr nw wre still enjoying childhood or have it lef us n wre nw teenagers. bt yar, perhaps fm e day we start to knw hw to thnk deeper n worry more, childhood has lef us bah. cus we no lnger knw hw to stay as a child. haha k dun digress. anw im listening to ting ma ma de hua tts y zz. aft tt weehoe n kirk lef den lef e few of us. so we had dinner at e i duno call wat place lol. den we wento sentosa! lol, so wu liao rite haha, bt nt bad quite fun. was alr 7.30 liao leh zz. den i thnk all of us damn mountain tortoise, lyk worse den tourist sia. take shuttle bus den go dere duno nid to pay nt den go in liao hav to take e map n haha becus we dunwan to lose face so we acted lyk tourist. nt me acty. haha damn funny. den wen to siloso beach. was reminded of bonding camp haha. n sitting on e tram at nite sure rox mann, e wind so cool n quiet. shuang. o den took photos cus found tis coconut tree tt is damn slanted. dere kc acted lyk climbing e tree haha. n becus e back gt e light so e few of us stand at e back n acted lyk those thngs haha. it really looks real in e pic lor haha. k aft tt wen hme at ard 9. haih. feel lyk gg dere to tan zz. hus happening enuff? rofl. so tts fr tt day yeah. wonder if gr bday gg out or anythng? haha. duno.
k so i was forced to practise maths dese few days. was rather unwilling n resisted at e start bt yeah jus do n u will feel btr rather den being stubborn yup. bt doing work has its environment n i doesnt lyk it at hme. wonder if my mum understand lol. so ytd wento find a place to do my a maths. haha wento tm at first n was at a loss. duno wtr i shld jus go library do alone or wat. den called leonard out haha, he kip saying v sian dunwan bt i manage to persuade him haha. so wento pasir ris whitesand library to do. haha it wasnt a wrong decision, cus leonard hlp me alot in e work if nt i thnk i do alone will feel v pekchek lol. thx ar haha. bt im nt tt bad oso. treated him to drink oso haha. n tdy i did my maths oso lol. jiayou bah. haha. tml gg out buy sme stuffs lol n i feel lyk roller blading. maybe i shall go tml, haha, shun bian go enjoy e wind n stuffs yeah.
o yar goong is getting nicer n nicer. bt of course, cus its ending le :( n goong2 e actors all change, i dun thnk i will lyk goong 2 bt its too early to say haha. n yeah was watching e shw n e ppl inside r all facing alot of diffculties n worries n stuffs. n u knw u always c dem alone thnking. tts e part i lyk bah. e way dey thnk n express demselves in e shw haha, e way e prince tok, calm n steady n e kind of format dey use makes e whole situation v serious. as in dier words really have feelings. every sentence is said aft deep thnking. perhaps its sth to do wif both e prince's characters, becus dey r always quietly thnking, e words dey say oso contain e feelings of their thots zz. i sound abit ridiculus bt yeah tts it n i thnk its quite true. n i thnk tts wat attracted many ppl to e shw bah lol. maybe e songs hlp in e shw oso lah. bt yeah songs hlp in all shws, if we have a 24 hr player which plays music n songs according to wat one is feeling n facing. den tis world will becum a v emo n sad world bah. cus many ppl r facing worries mst of e time n feeling sad mst of e time den really feeling happy deep dwn in e hearts. lol, bt for me, maybe is too early to say cus im still young n inexperience n i haben feel e real kind of challenge, n e real kind of ups n dwns in life in tis complicated society. i feel tt no matter wat u face or wat happen, as long as u can still c e sunrise, still enjoy e scenery, still feel e wind n relax, nth else matters, everythng will be fine, becus time is dere to heal, becus everythng will have a ending one day. even if it is jus a moment, u may be back into tis society n world e nxt moment once again, bt as lng as u still hav a chnce to relax n enjoy e wind n peace, den everythng ard u will becum so peaceful n quiet. really try, jus stop thnking of anythng n relax quietly, peacefully, jus enjoy anythng n everythng u c. u mite jus give out a fake smile. haha, dun wry too mch, jus lead life at ur own pace, no matter wat happen, its nt e end of e world. (becus scientist say tt e sun will only die n explode 50 million yrs ltr-_-) maybe i wont thnk tis way or feel tis way nxt time wen i grw up n face e real thngs, or maybe sme thngs mite jus make me change my thnking e nxt moment. bt since im still the me nw n still able to thnk tis way, den i shld jus cherish tis feelings n thots nw.
tok too much today, duno y oso maybe cus i was thnking bout all these dese few days. bt hu cares, y brood or thnk too much bout thngs ive thot alr n written alr. lol, shall nt continue, so long oso nobody will read mah haha. acty is jus to record wat ive thot bah. issint tt wat a blog is fr, e main motive issint really fr ppl to read, bt fr e blogger him/her self to write to record. tts y dere r sme ppl hu choose to have a own personal blog tt frens duno, to really write thngs deep dwn n personal. e frens we knw may only be on e surface bah, becus everyone has e own him/her in e heart, including me of course. noone can read others mind. u may smehw exactly knw hw he/she is thnking or feeling, bt never in detail, dere r always thngs u duno, unless u can switch e mind n heart (x
binghao
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Sunday, November 12, 2006
alright. finally free to at least geta short post done. with binghao not doing anything. lol
um. alright, bmt has been really getting onto my nerves these days. after using a hell lota money, finally got my racket done up. the stupid flymax uncle sux big time. oops. fine forget that. 1st, he restring-ed my racket incorrectly. so i brought it back to him to mend it then after that. he almost ruin my poor new racket. then i brought it to sintec to fix it. ended up having to restrign again. so in the end spent 29 bucks on purely the string only. like wtf.
din play well for a very long period of time already. like 2 wks already. coz of reasons here and there. but i think i'm really getting faster and faster. it's cool when u can actually guess/predict where the fellow's gonna hit the nxt moment. except for justin's. got pwned by him. din play with him before so ended up moving too fast to the dar end and missed his x-court backhand. 0.0 but o well. nvm. csc fixtures r out 2nd match would be against sports sch. somehow we r just at a disadvantage. coz when we hear their name, deep down in our heart, our confidence and all those shit r long gone already. same goes for leon as well i guess. well, lets just get our 1st match done and show em what we had trained for.
somehow for the farewell thing. i dun really feel like doing the sch thing anymore (hope sinyee isnt reading this) somehow bbq would be so much better i reckon. coz at least it wun be a flop. hope mr hoo doesnt approve of the overnight stay. it may sound stupid sayign all these after all thos i had done but sigh, well i'uno. nvm.
anyone can get a job for me? those kind that doesnt nid to be there everyday. like flyers or stuff like that. i really dun mind. at least i can work out or something. lol. as long as it doesnt affect my training days and time.
finished a math already. but vectors is really getting on my nerves. it's complicating. gotta learn how to do at least some of it without my bro. lol. he's off to chalet. and poor me only gets to stay for 1 day for chalet. o ya plz pay the money to me by tue.
what else. hmm, o ya, cant really get myself started on writing compo. shit. nvm, shall finish all the rest 1st before writing compo. and guys, can we buck up for training and stuff and stop saying things like ' can i run and do lesser of this and that instead ?' gosh, lets just all do the same alright.. no one wishes to do all these as well but they r doing so we really shldnt complain. read jovan's post that day. i know he's trying hard but sometimes, i'm at a lost of what to do to help. not only him. but on other occasions as well. hmm, heaven helps those who help themselves. so dun give up hope jovan, coz if even u urself dun believe in God and yourself, no one will be able to help yourself. tho u wun be reading this but yea, we'll always be there behind you. we wun leave u out :)
alright, it's 3.39 already. gtg complete vectors b4 going down for a lil soccer or bball. tc you, you and you out there. cyaS. =)
Guorong.
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Tuesday, November 07, 2006
haven been online for quite some time already. this time round, hv loads to say but so lil time. went out on jr's birthday. went many place and unexpectedly i got myself a prebirthday song from them. heh, and um alot of stuff la. if binghao comes online, he'll post them lol.
din manage to get a job coz of my training days but nvm. i could do without those wages. alright. gtg already. nxt time, i'll update more. cya.
what would i do without you dude.. :)
Guorong.
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Friday, November 03, 2006
ok shall nt mention mch bout tdy, was on bed until 11 plus n each time i woke up, dere was msges cming in. n yar was acty gg to swim wif huiwen de, bt end up morning i cldnt find all my swimming thngs n wen i ask my bro he say he duno -.- n i didnt knw wtr i shld go so i tld him tt i nt gg in e morning. really sry n paiseh leh huiwen, er didnt knw thngs will turn out lyk tis.
hmm, n tis sunday is LORD JR bday zz, thnk dey gg out or sth, duno shall c. so tdy wen out wif sme guys to tm fr sme thngs lol. i can say wasted quite a lot of time. den aft tt wento gr dere to play bball lol. was acty quite fun playing wif his bros, haha, his whole family all dere except his parents zz. den go hme dat time saw lord jr again wahaha. n i wen hme late mann, miss 20mins of goong even thou i rushed =x lol i abit siao lah, bt acty i miss alot of parts oso liao, perhaps i shld jus buy e vcd or sth? lol.
k so is tdy n bye. n deathnote sure rox mann lol. o yar nt to mention those thngs i blog ytd was acty abit crap, haha so pls ignore if u thnk it is lol. so at last im binghao. nitez.
binghao
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Thursday, November 02, 2006
lol, binghao here, i knw i v lng den post sry gr. so its e holidays which fr sme is fun, fr sme is boring, n fr sme busy. i guess all of us will be busy wif hmewrk too bah lol is lyk so mch, bt can finish de i guess. jiayou ppl. n i tio bridging fr a maths, so jus had 2 lessons last 2 days. e lessons r short lah, 1 hr lyk fly past lyk tt lol, n den gt reexam, i mus get a A at least mann, i cannot let my failure go on... nvm.
o yar n holiday is bored fr me oso, duno whre to go bah, n yeah i jus watch initial d movie again =x haha i knw its so long n old bt i still lyk e shw, nt becus of jay chou yeah. bt i was bored too so yar watch a while lor. i lyk e kind of peace environment in e shw zz, e hse, so peaceful n cosy, n e air is so fresh n windy n e day is always so fine n relax. maybe e movie didnt really shw all these bt yeah maybe is e part wif e music den make me feel all tis bah, or shld i say i ttm. haha, bt yeah i really lyk peacefulness, nt those peace w/o wars, bt e environment, quiet n relax. lol perhaps tts y i lyk being alone mre often n go to places lyk city n airprt, becus i can thnk myself n do wat i wan lol, n these places r comfortable to me. n only wen ure alone tt u can feel e environment, to really observe e surroundings n relax n thnk, rather den toking to ur frens n stuffs. unless uve found smeone to enjoy all these wif u, smeone whom u can really share wif n whom u wanto share wif, smeone to share ur peacefulness wif. hmm, n wif tt perhaps ive gone out of pt n shldnt digress mre haha. bt yeah smetimes, its always gd to be alone. really, nt becus ure lonely bt try it lol. n i always hav a dream, a dream to stay at a place filled wif nature n peace haha. a place cosy n quiet n no matter whre it is, mst importantly a place tt is comfortable lol. n shld i mention wif e person i love lol, bt tt isint impt nw. lol, becus tts a dream n a dream remains as sth so far n unreachable until u really fufill it lol. k lah tonight is a crappy night cus i crap alot -.- n i thnk alot too, was thnking y do ppl thnk too mch n so mch, so crap lol. bt tis kind of thng wont hav a ending or solution de, n ppl mite jus thnk ure siao, haha, bt yeah y do ppl thnk n y m i thnking bout tis qn. lol, n y do i thnk tt y shldnt i be thnking bout hw do ppl thnk -.- zz so confusing. bt tis kind of stupid thng will nvr end u knw, haha, becus our brain is a wonderful thng haha.
o yar n everybody is toking bout deathnote nw haha. k lah maybe nt everybody bt yar since e movie came out, ppl start becuming interested in e manga stuffs, e comics n animes. lol im still halfway thru at bk 7 of e comics haha bt i shldnt say mch bout e content. cus ppl still wana watch e 2nd movie haha. bt L will die, wana knw y, den go watch it on dec x) haha, n e bck part is v complicated lol, many new faces n thngs, n u c hw clver light is lol. he outwit e deathgod mann zz. o yar n i hav started to watch goong n at e same time start to lyk goong. lol i knw im abit lag n slow to watch only nw, bt last time my mum didnt allow cus she dun lyk, bt nw she say e chn 8 shw nt nice so i switch. at least i still knw wats gg on lah lol, haha. o n mon had chi O's, duno my compo can nt cus i feel i wrote abit off. i didnt plan well enuff, bt everythng was quite smooth n okay bah. nxt i feel lyk working during e holidays, perhaps to make use of time n to learn abit fm e world out dere, n to earn sme extra money. lol, lets hpe yiheng faster find one haha. n o yar i feel lyk doing alot of thngs bt nw i dun, cus nw im tired n abit unwell haha. so i guess tml i will start to again feel lyk doing alot of thngs. ok tts crap.
haha k lah damn sian sit here type until so late. i oso tired le haha. duno gt wat to add on cus so lng nvr blog. maybe if i hav den i blog again lah, hpe i hav e mood den n blog; oso e mood to blog mre often perhaps zz. n i realise i haben post my taiwan pics, bt since its so lng le so dun care oso, lazy oso so many lol. n nt mch ppl cme tis blog oso i guess lol. i go slp le, shall go lie dwn dere n listen to songs n relax lol, n stone haha. byebye ppl.
binghao
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Wednesday, November 01, 2006
finished 3 yingyognwen already. left 3 more zuowen and 1 jianbao. then i'll start on the rest. 1 zuowen per day ? lol. kinda hard. everyday without training it would be. wake up, eat, com, bball, night, dinner, tv, sleep. lol
gotta find some time to do hw. hmm. andand we're going back to traing with kelly for 2 wks starting from tml. um. thats all. nth much. cya guys.
Guorong.
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