so i'm not really feeling that gd and dun wish to post anymore. cya.all my thoughts of you.Guorong. posted by GuoRong Thursday, December 28, 2006 . . .
it's christmas today. spent ytd night at kirk's house and reached home just. his family's quite religious. i mean only his mum ba. yup and um. his mum and dad r really nice. i'm tired and i dun wanna post anymore. somehow theres just this feeling that's getting me to go probe and find out more bout christianity and explore the Bible. i shall do just that and see what i can find. take it as a bonus instead of a burden.i hate it when my efforts not appreciated or even realised.Guorong. posted by GuoRong Monday, December 25, 2006 . . .
it's christmaseve. not gonna elaborate much on what happened ytd. but just there's still no improvement at my smashes at all. i'm still waiting. or rather, i'm still trying.Guorong. posted by GuoRong Sunday, December 24, 2006 . . .
lol binghao here. haha christmas is cming. bt doesnt tt means sch is reopening. lol. and i haben found time to go watch e movies i wan haih. hey n haben rollerblade lol. gd i hav been wasting my time lol. bt yeah no nid to regret nw cus i dun hav time haha. smehw i hav been neglecting many many thngs lately nt jus sch stuffs bt even to enjoy lol. in a way tt i feel tt everythng has a solution n so wat if tis n tat happen. yeah bt i knw im getting it in a wrong way lol. n tt all lies in my characters. i knw im one hu dun lyk to be controlled bt everythng shws tt im nt responsible enuff. i knw tis issint e life im after bt i oso knw tt many thngs cannot be change. only wen im dreaming lol. haha k tts all lah. nth to tok bout tis few days or wks. haha life jus goes on. lol. o bt tdy had an argument or so called discussion wif my parents. i was saying tt certificate issint tt impt in tis society bt dey took it tt i dunwan to study. lol. i do n i still wanto get into university. haha bt dere r many ppl out dere hu holds tt certificate too. so it is jus a mch safer route tt many choose. unless u alr hav ur plans. hmm so wat if one dun hav a certificate. dey still can find work to do. dey earn lesser n mite even work mch mre bt at least dey get to do a job tt dey prefer. rather den holding a certificate n finding a job tt mus give u a higher pay. or rather fits into ur status as a graduate. lol studies dun earn u a living, nor do certs. it only gives u a btr chance n mch mre choices to choose fm. perhaps a btr living too. bt so wat if i prefer e other kind hu work tougher bt get a job tt u prefer mre wif mre freedom rather den stuck up in tt cold office. lol. bt its nt up to me to say nw. haha studies is still as impt. wait until i finish up my education to go pursue e life i wan. haha its all too early to say.had lunch wif rocket tdy. v lng nvr c him liao. ate a while n tok alot. lyk 3 hrs? lol toking bout taiwan haha. cus dey jus came bck. haha n i can tell dey had mch fun dere. i understand too cus i wen dere nt lng ago. haha perhaps if i cld choose. i really prefer e kind of independent life lyk those shws in taiwan. being able to wrk n study at e same time to earn urself a living. maybe i haben really suffer b4 so i duno tt kind of tough life n is jus being naive here. bt i thnk tt kind of life is meaningful. haha. shall stop here. byebye. binghao.Merry Christmas and Happy New Year posted by GuoRong Saturday, December 23, 2006 . . .
gr here. had a really bad day today.at first, everything was fine, in fact it was gd. i started being nice to the ppl around. even those i dun really like in the past.then i went for training. i realised.. i din bring socks. nvm. then i ran to jovan's house and got a pair. then was training. and match. i din noe wtf went wrong and i just couldnt get into the mood and play. and i kinda dragged zhi hong down with me. i was super angry and i felt like killing someone. i desperately need some help in controlling my anger. but this anger was not targetted at any other ppl except the particular one. i didnt know why. i didnt know what things r like this. and it isnt the first time anymore. i know it's all my fault. coz u didnt do anything to antagonize me. and and. there was just an undescribable anger.i thought perhaps i got to used to winning and and and i just couldnt accept the fact that i lost.but thinking it thru, it wasnt because of that. coz i flared up at just the particular someone.on the way home, i pondered bout it. life's unfair. i thought. i attended every training. more than others does. i dun slack during all these days of hard training. and now i'm not improving while others who attended lesser training and train not even 3/4 as hard is constantly improving. i'm really quite pissed off at the start. i tot of what i hv and what others doesnt. or rather all the while, i was comparing with just him. i've got really gd friend who talks to me but ,i know i shldnt be thinking this way, sigh. nvm forget it.just apologized to zh. the reason why i dun give up during the match is all because of my partner. coz it isnt fair if ur partner is giving all his best and trying so hard despite all the problems and points gap. and u're simply thinking about giving up and how to tell yourself that it has been a bad day. but it was all too late by then.it doesnt matter as at the end of the day. it's always me telling myself that tommorow would be better and put the past behind. nxt training. i promise i would give it all my best and not disappoint myself and anyone. ending off and i hope the promise doesnt get broken. alright. tommorrow would be better i hope.perhaps it's all virtual and one-way.perhaps.Guorong. posted by GuoRong Friday, December 22, 2006 . . .
gr here. had been so bz with training that i dun even hv time to set my hands on the com. noone views it anyway. so sometime it doesnt matter whether there is a post anot. training today. again. played poorly and well. poorly at 1st but better ltr. dun feel like playing at 1st. dunno y as well. so dragged zhi hong down with me. so sry la. then another match played better. u cant win everything. neither can u always win. yea. so i'm not all that confident sometimes. lol no one knows. so it doesnt matter. haha! and and my backhand is !@#!@#. gotta improve it soon. trainings coming to an end and hope our match with fuhua on friday turns out gd.collecting money is a chore mannn.. dun even know if the sec 1s know bout it. ther r kind anti social. it doesnt work if u r only gd at bmt and sux at socialising. and yea, so troublesome and vexing sometimes when i hv so much on my mind, so many stuff to rmb and to do. i wanna go out tml. but mum wans me to go to popular with her. and it doesnt seemed nice to reject her. so many things happened and now kinship means alot to me. especially my mum. so what if ur mum owns a company and speak perfect english. so what if she can drives and give u loads of money. my mum is great in her own ways as well. and those ppl out there, u dun need to know. u cant buy love thats for sure.i hope someone gets a clue of what i'm talking bout next and get a life.u hv to die to learn how to live. ever wondered if u would go the nxt day ? and that u haven even done anything to influence the ppl around u. and haven done anything to the society and stuff. r u still studying all day long just for that piece of cert with straight As. straight As cant be exchanged for a loved one. r u still playing games, mapling 24/7 just to get to the highest rank in maple ? pay for maple cash to look cool in a virtual world when u can actually do much more meaningful things with that money. you OUGHT to get some meaning into your life.so what if i scored 7 As for the first time in my life. it doesnt bring back my loved one. slogged so hard just for that sheer moment of joy and proudness. it all seemed meaningless now. live with a meaning. but i'm glad i got that piece of results. it made me realise that results aint everything. but it proved that i'm able to do so if i set my mind to it. i studied so hard just so that when u probe bout anything, i can do something to help instead of seeing u struggle, denying that u dun understand at the same time. but now it doesnt matter anymore. it's not the same anymore. absence makes the heart grow fonder ? it doesnt happen to both the party everytime. what crap. but i dun care, imma try all i can to get back to how we were in the past and hopefully i'm not denied this chance even in my last graduating year. bless me with this chance to be able to use my knowledge and what i can offer to help in some ways. and with that, i can live with a meaning. start by contributing to the ppl around u, offering what u hv, then the society. find meaning and joy in the tasks u do. and u wun be half awake chasing materialistic things. like higher lvl or better results. more is good, thats the wrong culture. u'll nv get enough of chasing these kinda things.i too sometimes get pessimistic and think that how come things happening this way and start feeling sorry for yourself. but that doesnt last long, the nxt moment i must break away from this self pity and start again. it's impt for me, in bmt as well. to calm down and start again once i made a mistake. accpet the past as past, without denying it or discarding it.life's unfair to everyone. so in a way, it's fair since it happens to everyone. i dun get money all the time, i dun get new clothes once a wk or a gd meal everyday. but, i'm happy and i m able to make others feel the same as well, dun u just envy that. so start getting a life and stop wasting your time. life's not that long, before u know it, it might be over alr.dun assume that it's too late to get involved.one last thing (it's getting late and i'm tired)learn to forgive others and forgive yourself.to err is human.to forgive others is a hard task. but taking revenges on each other, it will nv end. so y not give in and forgive others. before it's too late. and u might not even get the chance.alright i'm really tired already. hope someone really read this post and tag on the board.lol. cya.thx to tues with morrie for helping me understand this much. i pity those who read the bk without learning anything.Guorong. <3> posted by GuoRong Thursday, December 14, 2006 . . .
ok im binghao. haben been posting fr a wk. i thot tt doesnt matter becus dere isint anythng to post anw. i rmb mentioning bout gg out on my previous post. haha bt tts jus bullshit lol. been hme all these few days. im a good boy hu plays e com whole day n gets nagged all day lol. my hmewrk is still waiting fr me in e cupboard=/ omg my cousin jus told me an unbelieveable news zz. k dun get too excited lol. family business. lol tml dere is a bbq fr bmt. lol fr sme reason i dun really feel lyk gg to be honest. bt im still gg becus gr asked me to. i mean nt forcing bt yeah my frens r dere lol. n 3g chalet nxt wk. zy shld hav finish e comics by nw i hpe. n i thnk perhaps its a gd time fr me to go to e airport. lol, my own plan so is all bout me alone haha. o anw anyone knw wen e bballers cming bck. i fail to send dem so i hpe at least can go welcome dem bck.dese few days i hav been lying on bed early bt slping late. haha lie dwn at 11 n slp at 1 or 2 wif e mp3 playing zz. n becus of tt i always thnk bout stupid stuffs haha. was wondering y sme shws leave great impression n y sme ppl dun lyk sme shws n stuffs-.- i knw its sth stupid to thnk bt its still sth to be thot about nt tt im too free. lol n random stuff i thnk e tian wai fei xian in channel U is a nice shw. i even felt tears in my eyes zz. hey n dey r warm. tis is e first time i notice-.- lol tt shw really leave a great impression bt smehw my parents n bro cannot accept tt shw pretty well. dey can say its childish bt i thnk i understand. nt jus becus its all bout love. i duno bt tts wat i feel. lyk ou xiang ju n korean shws, dey involve alot of details about a person's thots n dey focus mainly on e feelings of e characters n one of it is wif e hlp of songs. no matter wat, sme can accept n will lyk e shw v mch bt sme hu feel tt its long winded otherwise. lol n to me its definitely a nice shw n i shall stop toking bout it here.tts all to post n i wonder hw lng will i post again. lazy me lol. haha n tis month we hav huang jin jia n charlotte's web n deathnote2 zz. all e nice movies. n harry potter n the order of the phoenix is cming nxt yr july. i thnk e last bk will be ard tt time too(: lol im off.binghaoI enjoy the peace of being alone. lol. posted by GuoRong Saturday, December 09, 2006 . . .
alright gr here. binghao. lets fix a date and lets all go out. lol i'm really tired from trainings and hw, that life has been a ____. lol so i guess i really nid to head out and get together with some of my friends. o no not some. with all. lol.holidays' left with less than a mth. trainings takes up 4/7. left with 3/7 of the wk, thats bad. but we need the trainings so no choice. but i think i did something meaningful this hols. i read tuesdays with morrie again. great bk. touching and inspiring.in every situation, u can either be positive or negative. and this guy, a real life person. he chose to take it positively. anyway, the story's just great and i'm lazy to say anymore. lol.forgive yourself and forgive others.it's nv too late for anything.create your own culture instead of following others.love each other or perish.lol. only rmb-ed this few. his aphronisms.training training and training. it has definitely make me better i guess. but it takes up 1 whole day. and aiya dunno how to say. forget it.talked to leon again the other day. only me him and choonhwee came for training. the rest were all on vacation or sick -.- so we went for desert then headed home lo. then nth to do so talked lo. lol din gossip. stopped in time to not know what i dunno and shldnt noe.so mostly it's bout him himself and his gfS. lol interesting. shall not reveal anything. but it doesnt concern me anyway. so right now. i'm tired of posting any further so i shall say bye. bye.Guorong. posted by GuoRong Tuesday, December 05, 2006 . . .
lol blog blog blog. haha guorong blog so shall me zz. k n yar gr e job thngy leave it fr nxt yr lah, haha tis holiday no time find a job liao. n thx huiwen fr tagging everytime too(: lol, gt nth to say bout tis few days cus i stayed at hme everyday doing nth. only tdy wento eat seoul garden cus i suddenly feel lyk eating haha. n i haben rollerblade yet! i was wanting to skate since b4 exam n until nw still haben. lol, i acty organize to go ecp wif my cousins tis sat, haha. bt failed lol. tis is my first time organizing yet last min many cant make it zz. bt deyre adults mah, dey gt work n stuffs. i thot of gg skating alone. bt a prob is whre to put my shoes n bag, n its rainy season so all tis thng wont go smooth haha.dese few days woke up ard 12 everyday=/ lol, n nw tv gt fengyun2 n e tian wai fei xian shw. both r nt bad haha, so comic kind. lol n nw shwing chu lu zz. a shw wen i was in erm k2? so, working hard cmes success? haha, its true tt only ppl hu hav been thru hardship knws wat is success. n its nt jus bout hardwrk. every little thngs affects one's success, thru butterfly effect. lol, lyk gr, i shall have a 'places to go' (x :1. changi airport2. east coast park ( jus to rollerblade lah)2 only yeah. haben thot of any nice places to go bt i really feel lyk gg to e airport. n even btr if i can go at night haha. bathe le den wear a jacket go dere have a quiet dinner alone n den walk ard. i wish i cld mann, it will be damn shuang lol. tdy is official opening of vivocity i thnk haha. cme to thnk of it, i haben had a family outing fr tis whole yr zz. excluding gg to temples, grandparents hse, dinner n during chi new yr lol. last time used to at least go shop fr shirt during yr end fr new yr bt tis few yrs lyk no mre liao zz. hpe tis yr will go. bt acty, im nt used to gg out wif my family to shopping malls or crowded places so smetimes i rather nt=/ random stuffs for myself. n o my bro is hme haha. im tired. lol. bye.binghaoI love walking because walking makes me see more and learn more. lol. (: posted by GuoRong Friday, December 01, 2006 . . .
red. coz the skin is so black. perhaps i'll use better colors yup.had friendly today. with fuhua. won all our matches. except for 1 singles. yup. they werent that strong la. but plz dun cheat la.. my services were PERFECT in and ... they said it was out. ~~but nvm. their 1st singles went to china to train. LOL. wonder if anyone of us can be so committed.dun reckon so. dota and maple on their mind ar.wa, forget it la. lol hv to start hw soon too. but cant stay up too late. dun wanna risk my eyes anymore. so i can see when i play bmt. if not i would hv to put on specs. which is so inconvenient.and the bmt room lost 1 squash racquet and 1 trainer racket. wth. counted them over and over and over adnd over le leh. still short of 1 each. the trainer racquet is ez to get mistaken for a normal one and took home by accident. btu the squash racquet. wth. so some of us suspects fuhua took it. but. aiya. cant be la. give them the benefit of the doubt.then ate dinner in sch. lol leftover lunch packets. so went to 85 for sotong and stingray and desert. o ya. this is random but i think i'm getting better at bmt.1)hw2)bbq3)some time out with the guys4)pack my room5)get a job6)cant think atmargh. so many stuff to do. and bbq is top priority. followed by hw. cheehuat nv reply me =/ dunno how to settle the date. k la end here. cya.Guorong.coz i want u to know that u r appreciated.** posted by GuoRong Friday, December 01, 2006 . . .
