wa, i've been sleeping at unearthly times for the past wk la. elearning elearning elearning. i seriously need a gd sleep sometime soon.

and tonight, sadly, isnt that time.
gotta get up early in the morning tmr to head to sch for bmt stuff.

oh and today, meeting was at 11, i woke up at 1050. -.- had to cab down and wasted money again. super broke these days, coz of stupid reasons like this.

um, so i'm left with only a current affairs quiz for elearning wk. and take note that i mentioned, elearning WK. yes, there are stuff to be handed in the wk after elearning wk, so in a way, the gloom hasnt quite end yet.

i' m still left with a summary for english bout microfinance, letter to teacher, maths written assignment, econs short answer qn. and pw which i shld be doing now and sending to jeremy. but it's 3.22am alr. i guess i'll just do it tmr afternoon. please please, dun come after me, i dun wanna come up with an excuse. i nv like coming up with one, but i dun like feeling bad coz i didnt do something i was entrusted with too. great.

got couple of nice encouraging stuff today, which was badly needed. i didnt think i did well for the 'friendly' just now. was so so much better against nyp. but i shall not go on on that.

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when y've come t the end of your rope, tie a knot and hang on. only you knw how to tie the knot and how t hang on. don't deny, because you really do"

and one more

-i'd rather rmb the rain and sunshine part,
coz it'll remind me of you, a rainbow.

hahah, u sure are learning fast and well, and u know who u are ^^

Nehmind, lemme give you some online sunshine!"
*sunshine emoticon*
"My sky is still dark leh =/"
*rainbow emoticon*
"Sunshines and rainbows don't match lah, what you need is rain.
"*rain emoticon*

theres a reason why the rainbow comes after the rain. cliche but always forgotten.

k, meaningful post. now for something more meaningful. night.



GuoRong

posted by GuoRong Saturday, July 26, 2008

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hey, hv been super busy this e-learning wk. hv got lots to tell but no time to do so. maybe sometime soon!

went for friendly at nyp today. it was good. tmr's gonna be another long day and friday's another friendly and saturday will be some dsa day-camp or smth for badminton. i need a gd break to do up all my elearning stuff man. hasnt even found time to do up my tutorials which i lagged or shld be doing in advance. not to mention revision.

right now, it's time for a gd sleep. night.


GuoRong

posted by GuoRong Wednesday, July 23, 2008

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i love you, but i dun like you.

this wk went past pretty fast as usual. and i think i slept for all the econs lecture, it just doesnt seem to be able to keep me awake. and it's ironic that my econs was yet the best sub this jct. maybe writing essays' my stuff instead.

announcement spree ended too today. come to think of it, it's really funny how i trembled the first time i went. now, it's like.. normal. darsh helped a lot too. talked cock all the way.

i think i got 1 mistake for listening compre. but nvm, i'll just hv to do better for the rest of the components.

today napfa 2.4 was bad, to me la. clocked 10.26 this time round. running on track really feels much more different. i guess my aching legs did helped slow me too. but nvm an A it is.

slacked in sch today after lessons. e-learning wk's here and i think i really need a short break. plan was to do gym, but ended up playing basketball with the class. by the time we ended, swimmers' meeting in the gym was starting alr. so didnt make it. went to play tennis and a lil bit of bmt and chatting around with kirk plus his classmates.
AND sherman was super entertaining with how he played tennis. (y)

and i just realised how impt it is to me, that ppl trust me. for goodness sake. when i said i know how to do my tutorials, i do. when i said i do ask if i'm unsure, i will. when i said i know i'm not in the wrong, i really am not. and WHEN I SAY I DIDNT DO IT, I DID NOT.
the list goes on.

it really suck so much to get maligned. thats like one of the things i really cant stand, apart from how ppl just don't seem to understand no matter what.

tmr's montfort shine. first time i'll be facilitating but i think it'll be fun. hidden agenda would be to get some montfort players in. haha, i really wonder how tho, but we'll try. hahah.

um, what else do i hv. i kinda forgotten what i wanted to put down.

oh, rmb-ed. 1408 got 4th in the level for overall ranking. LOL. yeah, pretty amazing and unbelievable but true. must hv been the work of the basketball playing boys. haha. ( i hope the rest dun get mad when they see this.)

and i heard we topped the level for econs. like wth.

Sportsmen Appreciation Ceremony's coming up too. hasnt got all the photos and start on anything yet. sigh, i'm feeling pretty jaded today after coming home from sch. it's enough just thinking bout all the stuff that i dun really understand and those that will be taught which will likely be much much more incomprehensible. and thinking bout all the ppl around me. the things happening. things i hv to do. the amount of time (short) i hv.
theres just so so many things around.

your job is to rise up to the challenge, WHATEVER IT IS.
and noone said it's gonna be easy.


GuoRong

posted by GuoRong Friday, July 18, 2008

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today went past pretty well. sch and training was gd. tho i struggled to stay awake sometimes during sch. econs lecture~ hahah.

training was gd. had bonding games before it and i did pretty alright today, theres still much more to work on though!

and i really shld start talking more, since it's alr july. coz it really suck to just drift away from friends unknowingly.

oh and imma take up tennis as pe elective. hahah, it sounds gd. during sch hours and it's free too. HAHAH. the rest of the electives seem pretty cool too, but i just don't hv time for them. yeah, so thats just too bad.

was almost late today with phaykey. reached on the dot and even manage to see mr tong JUST before assembly started.

tmr's announcement gonna be short and sweet. just 2 lines. hahah.

alright. i'm really beat from training. wouldnt wanna hv dozing spells tmr, besides, it's a long day and yeah. i'll need all the rest i can get tonight. cya.


GuoRong

posted by GuoRong Monday, July 14, 2008

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i finally finished my eom after like 5 hours on it.

today was ok. went out early in the morning for final day of the inter-tampines bmt matches. we got first. lol. i heard there will be free rackets, we had a gd share of free drinks and court time on top of that. this competition's definitely a give-away. haha!

only managed to do up my maths tutorial and eom this wkend. slept in on saturday. woke up at 3.30, so didnt get anything done up too. but i think i'll be fine this following wk. nth urgent that i hasnt completed. well, apart from econs case study, thats if he's gonna go thru, which i very much doubt so. but still, i guess i'll try and complete it tmr.

trainings on tmr, and it'll make 4 in a row bmt days. fri sat sun and tmr.

thats bout all. gotta go print out the stuff and catch some sleep.
sch be gd tmr and the whole of nxt wk~


GuoRong

posted by GuoRong Sunday, July 13, 2008

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well, it's another wk again. and i wun say i'm really pleased with how things ended this wk.
roadshow wasnt fantastic, we didnt hv a dry run before it so we got a lil panicky when it's our turn and ended up just briefly covering the points, didnt really reflect the significance of sportsxcel to the sch and us.

we shld hv just do without a script and go up there and simply share. maybe that would hv been better. i dunno~ oh and the students there werent that fantastic la, they werent even paying attention to us while we were sharing. thats wasnt very nice.

k anw, roadshow's over, it makes me want to do something really impressive for others to see, to reflect my capability and fish some praises for me and us. still, it was quite an experience. and mrs loke's really nice. she certainly knows how to speak, in a manner that will make ppl feel really good. hahah. made a couple of friends today. donglin and jasmine, my bro's juniors whom i knew bout but nv really talked to before. and chester the guy who can really talk.

got back JCTs grade. got C D E S for H2s and C E for my H1s. shall not really comment on it, coz i dun really know what to say too. one of my classmates was apparently troubled over his grades, coz he missed 1 mark to an A. and his results were alr A B B C. well, i just dun understand how some ppl really take it that seriously. different world i guess. oh of course i've gotta work hard for promos, just like how the rest will be, wouldnt wanna get left behind~

training wasnt gd today. i lost like all my games, changing partners. so it's like whoever partners me, lost. -.- sucked so bad la. feels really different from wed's training, where everything went alright. and it's nv easy to tell yourself that it's ok, all will be well, dun worry and stuff, when obviously it isnt happening anytime soon. nvm, monday~~

i just took my strengthsquest thing and my strengths are really special.

Individualisation

Connectedness
Adaptability
Responsibility
Empathy

it says, I CARE. HAHA! 'sharing is caring' haha, yuxuan has been hearing this for quite few times over this few days

anw, the strengthsquest thing actually said i shld be continuing literature as well. it says i shld do literature, pschology or sociology. but i'm stuck with pcme alr. guess i'll just hv to stick with it.
the strengthsquest thing's actually quite true too. yeah.


alright i shld be sleeping now, and waking up early tmr to do my stuff.


GuoRong

posted by GuoRong Saturday, July 12, 2008

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a more bitter failure makes the victory sweeter,
but know what, i dun like it too sweet. screw those who don't understand, damnit.
i need an ally who's with me, not someone who's always lecturing me when she doesn't even understand or know what i'm doing.

solo-ed announcement today. i must say i'm getting better at it. roadshow's tmr. please, turn out well. coz i dun wanna screw things up and embarass myself at the same time. and please be fun and exciting. will be going with yuxuan, to CCHMS.

and can ppl just stop ranting on bout jcts. it's getting quite irritating sometimes. (especially when ppl do better than me, yeah.. sour grape. whatever~)

alright, shall go off to do up today's work.


GuoRong

posted by GuoRong Thursday, July 10, 2008

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wow, i must say things hv really been amazing and unexpected.

i just got a sms from a pri sch friend, asking me bout how i was doing. he wasnt someone i was really close to, not someone who was in the same sec school as me too. and i think we didnt talked for like dunno how many years alr.

and if that wasnt special enough, this friend just recovered from a stroke mths ago.

i knew bout it, but didnt really do much to know more or help in any way i could, and today, when i asked him why he would sms me all of a sudden, of all ppl that he knew and was closer to, me. he said, he went to get all the ahs ppl number coz they folded cranes for him and he wanted to thank them. he saw my name, and just decided to sms and ask how i'm doing.

the thing is, i did not fold a single crane for him.

i guess it was the ahs ppl, who gave him the cranes and said it was from the ahs ppl from class 6/9. but he doesnt know i'm not one of them. i got quite a shock and felt bad when he told me the reason in his sms. the other ahs ppl werent close to him either and yet they tried to help, but i couldnt be bothered then. and now, this guy is thanking me, for something i nv did, something he thought i did.

it's just a weird feeling that i'm having right now. i asked bout how he was doing too. he saw he's gonna repeat sec 3, coz that stroke killed lotsa of his memory cells and he cant rmb much of his basics. he told me how pissed he is with his life, and i kinda talked to him a lil bout how things simply happen, and we gotta face it.

i hope it's not too late to help.

yeah. this is just, simply amazing to me.


swim meet was alright today. day 2 tmr, go tj swim team!
and i hope mrs leong is not too pissed with me/us. and i hope she knows i don't like to miss lessons too and that i do do my catching up. i guess i'll just tell her and see how it goes. lol.

busy wk ahead.


GuoRong

posted by GuoRong Tuesday, July 08, 2008

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happy birthday wenmei!

it's been a quick wkend! went out on both sat and sun and going to tmr as well; pw and sportsxcel meeting. guess i really gotta focus when i'm doing my work, if not i think they'll nv be done, distractions are all around man.

had inter-tampines bmt competition today. yeah, sounds funny, but it is really what it is. the 5 parts of tampines playing. caught up with joyce for a bit too. and there goes my whole day. came home and fell asleep while doing chem.

sat was out with elisa, jovan and caleb. walked so much, but it was good. good to meet up with elisa and jovan, they haven't really changed much and glad to see that they're all doing fine. jovan's still as fair and funny and elisa's tanned and um, funny too. haha! it was so much fun just looking at how the 2 of them bicker all the way from tanah merah to marina square.

feeling pretty jaded now, thinking bout all the things undone and whether they're really worth doing so much for. i stared at the many piles of notes and wondered if i'm really able to rmb them all. theres, really a lot to do. at the same time, i wouldnt wanna miss out on anything else either.

well, it's getting late and i hv to get up early tmr. maybe things will get better if u stop thinking so much bout them.

-because i know how it feels like, thats why i wun do it to you.


GuoRong

posted by GuoRong Monday, July 07, 2008

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some of the pictures took today.thats bojun and daryl, guailan.
AND THIS, i didnt take this on purpose, it just so happened that i caught the sign too. haha! damn cool!
and thats narin, jeremy and daryl cheering after they won a pt off dodgeball -.-

wo, today was practically like a free day. ended lessons at 1050 coz of pw pilot test day. wouldnt say the test turned out really well, coz it was just like our own class having fun down there. haha, so all of it's just pictures of us playing.

oh and highlight of the day has gotta be announcement today damn, it was so much better than ytd, and considering that i had so much more to say today, i felt so much greater after coming down. did trembled a lil but it wasnt obvious i think, chatting and putting your mind off it before u go certainly helps i must say. or perhaps today was a friday and the mood's cool. yup.

anw, this wkend's gonna be packed despite the monday holiday, will be out everyday. that leaves me with lesser time to do the tutorials and pw, but, shld be fine. just gotta keep off the com or rather just msn.

1)chem june hols hw

2)pw eom article

3)maths tutorial 18 and 19

4)chem alkanes and alkenes tutorial

5)pw and sportsxcel meeting on monday

6)announcement for tuesday

7)3 econs case study

8)GP essay brainstorming

shit. it's still quite a lot.. ohwell. shall go find my article now and get some sleep. wk's been super lacked of sleep.

GuoRong

posted by GuoRong Saturday, July 05, 2008

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k, i just deleted my post. think it was super boring.
anw, in case u haven't realise, it's been 7 mths of jc alr. and it's 2 mths to promos. and 1 and 2 mths to end of your jc term. yeah, and so, please start appreciating whatevers around before u lose them all.

tried to convince and delude myself for all the things thats happening this whole wk, but i guess it really cant be helped. i chose how i want it to be, and now i just gotta face it it seems. besides, theres so much more stuff to look forward to. and it's not everyone who gets to do announcement and see mr tong everyday right. -.-

and, not everyone gets to do roadshows and speak on behalf of the sch too right? hahah! i hope it goes well, will prolly pack up my schedule even more but, it SEEMS exciting.

at least, it's better than those ppl who hasnt got much to do in sch cept attending lessons and a slack pdp and then go home. thats sooooo boring.
yeah, so since i hv the chance, might as well go try a lil of everything! hahah! (assuming that screwing it up will not cause serious consequences and repercussions)

yeah, and i've been doing my tutorials beforehand, so that i wun hv to do them after training, and it's been working fine. k it's getting pretty boring. but theres really not much stuff to post bout. coz all thats making things gd are those countless lil things that go on everyday and everywhere.

shall cont. on another day.
phrase of the wk- nobody said it's gonna be easy.

i can only say things are simply so amazing. i was just thinking of smth like the phrase a while ago before i saw it online somewhere. was telling myself that if it was easy, nobody would hv bothered to ask us to do it. and we wouldnt be too. yeah thats it.



GuoRong

posted by GuoRong Thursday, July 03, 2008

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