k, maybe i really shld write a lil smth everyday.

but days have really been plain luh, either that or i'm just too lazy to post about things. been just training, doing hw, watching tv or chatting on msn/playing.

so anw, eugenia told me mrs leong told them that we all will have to take the 5th jan aptitude test too. and shermaine told me. ms wong wants us to take the chem one too -.- which also means that i'll hv to prepare for them apart from just doing the hw. and that i'm alr very behind time in doing my hw. -.-

zz. to think i'll be blogging bout being stressed bout work even in the holidays. ugh.

let me just list them down. haven really done so.

1. maths assignment 2 and 3 (by 9th dec)
2. chem hw a stack, haven even flip thru
3 physics a stack and haven flipped thru too
4. econs project
5. GP, 2 compres. plus 6 essay plans


(y)

posted by GuoRong Friday, November 28, 2008

. . .

hahah, yes we did do cip k. here was what happened.
we were told to clean the drains around the home, so sam and i got the part of lifting all the drains lid while 2 other girls sweep them.
then,
we came across this, 985904328052 snails in an area. lol.

gr: eh, lets take em up and put them in a line
sam: huh!
gr: if not they will be swept away what!
sam:oh ya

then we started taking em up. HAHA, and the 2 girls stared at us for a while, then laughed too.

threesome.

we even saw a foursome la, but didnt manage to take photo. lol. the girls were alr behind us then. and we hv to continue lifting the lids.

we didnt just see snails, saw lots of lizards too. it was ultimate saigang la.

anw, it was super heartwrenching to see the old folks la, there were some super skinny and frail ones, dunno how to interact with them too.

but we still went around talking la, after saigang's done. the one i talked to, couldnt speak. -.- then i dunno what to do too, so kept nodding and agreeing. then he looked at me, didnt say anything too. i just, smiled lo. oh and when he saw us right, he reached out his hand, kinda scary but i still took it luh, then he just shook it lo.

yeah, thats bout it all, i walked out of there feeling really unaccomplished, like i didnt really do much.

and we even got suaned by the guy la,

'so i see no one wants to talk to the old ppl anymore ah' he told our grp, the manual labour grp. -.-

but i think the ppl down there are like deserted by their family or have no family at all. super (u)

so anw, i came home and i slept till dinner, gotta start my maths now. 33 more qn, by monday! zz.

posted by GuoRong Sunday, November 23, 2008

. . .

shit, it was really close, but i guess we didnt play well luh. nvm. joint third, better than nth. but i can say we deserve it tho, every bit of it.

the only thing i'll ever hate bout your smile, is that i'm not the one who made you do so.

posted by GuoRong Saturday, November 22, 2008

. . .

<3

and it was so nice when u all held a lit candle each and sang me that song. (Y)

posted by GuoRong Thursday, November 20, 2008

. . .

it's been such a long day. really appreciate everyone who rmbed, even if it's just a simple msg or a verbal greeting. it mattered just as much. not gonna say the names out, but u know who u are out there!

berita harian competition in the morning. it went well. so, we're through to the semis on fri. and i dare say we deserve every part of it regardless of all the comments other ppl are saying, the sour grapes and the cocky boys. and on friday, we'll still be out there to fight and to win.

the rest of the stuff, i dun wanna say anymore. just kinda disappointed. that i couldnt do anything to make you realise that u did do something wrong and that dissapointed in how i didnt manage to teach u all that principles and change how u perceive things. great pity. but i still hope one day, u'll realise and change, for the better whereever u will be.

i'm really tired alr. and i don't know what to say too. just perhaps, we really lack the sense of urgency, guys. it's time to wake up.

had a great time at seoul garden eating and laughing anw. thanks for everything, really. and it feels gd to know that there are ppl behind u.

as always, if i hv to, i will.
even if it's just 6 left.
~the things that keep me going.

posted by GuoRong Thursday, November 20, 2008

. . .

seriously i think i care too much la, like in both sense, the care for ppl and care bout ppl.

training was gd, and i'm not there to socialise or charm ppl or show off, i'm just there to play badminton la. so i really didnt give a damn bout what the rest did.
k it sounds bad. what i meant was that, i didnt let how others behaved affected me, be it they were smiling and fooling around, acting arrogant and pro, acting pitiful and the list stretches.

but of course if it's under what i hv to take charge, then i have to do smth. but then again, i wonder if i'm too serious, but THEN AGAIN, this is training what, aren't we all supposed to be serious for training. k, at least to me, we are. jokes are ok la, but it gets a lil irritating when we get too relaxed and stuff.

so u can go on and curse me under your breath for all you want, coz i know what i'm doing and i'm not here to please everyone. but of course i don't wanna end up standing alone too.
but if i hv to, i will.

training was alright tho. could see that everyone really well. but it's still not enough. u might say i'm aiming too high and it's unrealistic, but hey, if u don't try, how will u ever know u wun reach it.

k so anw, i'm sry if i hv to screw your lives up sometimes. coz i really hv to.



berita harian competition tmr, this time round, we're all out there to win, instead of just get exposure. so, lets see how it goes tmr.


anw, sidetrack a bit. stupid pk had to ruin my day. -.- i was leaving alr la. with my wonderful loot and worms and skills and exp. and she was red when she managed to kill me luh. damnit, i suck at pvp. but then again, i guess i shld retire for gd, and just play it once in a while. it affects me too much and it's not gd.

and i just wanna highlight a point that, we shld all reflect upon ourselves constantly la, like the things we say and all. i mean, sometimes before we feel or say smth, stop and think, think if thats really the truth, truth always hurt. theres gotta be a reason why someone will say smth right. the world doesnt revolve around u, neither does it, around me. so, lets not be too quick to judge, too quick to get angry.

and from the moment i decided to post things up, i nv wanted to hide anything, all these were really how i felt. i cant say i'm right, but then again, think. think why i even said these stuff. u can confront me if i'm wrong. i'll be glad to listen, but i'll be glad to clarify and reason too. i'll apologize if i said smth wrong but then again, it's all what i feel. not neccessarily true, don't hv to be taken seriously and taken in wholly too.

woah, thats like a big chunk. but anw, i'm comfortable with anyone reading my blog, even if it means losing friends, inviting hatred and anger, getting ostracised and hated and scolded. coz i think i'll still do fine without these ppl, aint even sure if i shld use the word, friends.
i nv wanted to be an angel anw. then again, lucifer fell.
but that line kinda meant that i was actually even seen as nice and angelic.hahah, not that it's totally false k !

(k i shldnt be typing this, coz it's like really late -.-)


wa, it's getting late. shall stop here for now.
and i came across a piece of paper given to me by someone, i think it's davidtay.
it's called the things in life that u need to know, u learnt them in kindergarten alr.

when u're outside, hold hands, stay close and stick together. (y)

all the best for tmr!

posted by GuoRong Tuesday, November 18, 2008

. . .

slc's finally over. looking back, all that we've done, all the time spent worrying over whether this or that will work, coming up with backup plan if plan fails, even coming up with backup plan for our backup plan. and the list goes on..

but i must say the short 2 days of camp had really been fulfilling. my initial worries were certainly not uncalled for. but in the end, everything went well. especially during night orienteering. i'm really impressed with how grp 1 managed to get thru that, taking a back seat and observing, the way they grew was really heartwarming in a sense. could still vividly rmb the scene at 1935 (old changi hospital part 1) which was the scariest station. they were all stunned at what they hv to do when they were at the bottom of the pitch black slope. and they couldnt even believe that this is what they will hv to conquer. but i'm really glad, they did manage it. and of course it was fortunate that due to some miscommunication, the end point of that station was situated a short way outside the actual one which was directly outside the hospital's torture chamber building.

maybe it would hv been better if it was there at the actual site. maybe it would hv challeneged them more. but whatever it is, i'm glad enough.

the way they gelled/bonded in such a short amount of time was really nice. tho it was more of like a gossiping session that did the job. hahha, could nv forget how clare and jacob chat-ted all the way, making the long road seemed short even for me, the listener most of the time.

oh and anw, my group was, clare, jana, alicia, grace, michelle, jacob, zhiyang and leon. and of course bird, who facil-ed alongside with me.

actually if i were to say everything i've got to say for camp, it will really stretch super long. but nvm, i shall just go on and say as much as i can for it. coz it has definitely been a wonderful experience.

k so actually ice breakers didnt do much for our grp, our grp is like all tired and lazy, so we merely lazed around and stuff. i must say the real icebreakers was the night orienteering. or rather the start of it. tho they really had much to learn, like going thru things as a grp. some of them started to lead and off they went. and it was nice to note that they offered help to the rest who couldnt keep up. and by the time we reached some of the stations, they were alr carrying stuff that they didnt know belonged to who. i guess this was mainly due to the fact that they just wanted to get outta the place asap. so they just lugged everything and go. hahah. but it was great to see that they helped each other out.


another highlight would be when we had to seek shelter under one of the incomplete shelter. had to squeeze with one other grp and that night was when we really bonded i guess. we all couldnt sleep coz it was so cold and and the wind was so strong that night. bit maybe coz of that squeezing it felt cosy and stuff and everyone just sat round and talked nonsense. and although the hai nan ji fan chants from other group were really irritating, it kinda didnt affect us much luh, coz we had prata. hahah, real prata, not madeup like theirs.

anw, so for that night, i didnt manage to sleep. it was 6am in a flash and had to wake up alr. and coz of that i kept dozing off the whole day.

k, gtg for now. shall continue when i get back.


k, so rafting wasnt ok.. coz i guess the stations left for us werent the better ones, but whatever it is, gd job to sherman, staf and sean for rafting! (the triple 'S' team) oh and before aver gets angry. (y) to aver and her team for night orienteering too, seriously brought the best of ppl thru it. anf of course, clarence, who really did a lot for the whole camp tho he couldnt be with us. and annette for being the initial ic and doing so much :)

moving on to team building games,

'i think we're better at thinking games rather than physical games'
-quoted from clare.

hahah, coz we kept losing at the soccer and captain's cloth game but did super well for the flip plates game, that s how we came up with this conclusion.

tug of war was seriously tough business. pulled like it's the end of the world and the ring's still there in the centre. so many occasions, it was so close to ours. super irritating. and the ring on the other side broke like in 10 seconds. LOL fyi, that ring cost like 5.80. anyone who suffered any injury from that, go look for ZAIYOU.

anw, i'm kinda lazy to talk bout the stuff. so much happened, could still rmb em clearly even now. i guess the next part was the chilling in the room after campfire's ended. played 'i've nv' and shootshagmarry. LOL. and i swear i didnt know what shag meant la.

anw, there were some really funny moments from 'i've nv' like how yuanting said, i've nv eaten laksa before coz i dun like the color, how bimbotic. LOL.

and how leon said i've nv like anyone from the sane sex and we all turned to look at the girls sch ppl. HAHHA.

AND THE BEST, michelle's : 'i've nv been 160cm before.'
LOL, killed everyone la!

k so anw, thats bout it all la. just gonna say that these 2 days hv been amazing, had ups and downs, but the gd company made up for it. and i really love sportsxcel ppl so much, gosh. SaiGangWarriors (Y)!

although a lot of drama has happened, all the strained relationships and all, but afterall we're all part of tj right, and we really meant no harm at all. maybe we all needa brush up on our communication skills.

anw, gd job to the sc, hc and oac!
and i'm super proud of banner~ and yes, all of us too of course.


k, so now it's time to start hw, and start training hard.


and nicholas and trudy, i'm gonna start writing smth bout the 2 of u since u 2 found your way here.

posted by GuoRong Saturday, November 15, 2008

. . .

retreat in sch was well spent. had great company and the saikang didnt really seem as tiresome.

i'm really lazy to post everything, but i learnt a lot today. and i realised lotsa stuff today. shall just post the picture of the banner we did, which made me feel super accomplished even tho it was close to 4 am when we stopped work.

camp's gonna be really great. and please let it go smoothly, coz we, or rather the rest really spent a lot of effort on planning the camp. i didnt do anything much, just the banner i/c which i didnt even draw in the end.

but anw, i'm really not in the mood to post anything. so it'll end here tonight.

posted by GuoRong Friday, November 07, 2008

. . .

OP's finally over.

felt a lil relief as well as regret.

couldnt deliver perfectly despite all the preparation done. it's so, wasted and heartaching la.

didnt do that well for q and a too. hopefully it turns out fine. sigh. whatever it is, it's all over. time to look ahead. (i see piles of hols hw. -.-)

i think i'll actually miss exerace! la. hahha! i think jeremy shares the same feelings too.

the other grps with us had pretty slides, and theres this guy who spoke without cue cards and spoke in a perfect tone and clarity and volume! i think he's gonna get full marks la! his q and a was a bit wasted tho. we felt that he didnt answer the qn, but he asked the assessors if he did and assessors were ok with it. well..

thats bout all luh, lazy to go on any further bout it. i think our grp was ok.

couldnt think of what to do after lunch, so in the end went out with E for a lil shopping for jr's present. had time to waste till 430. so we really just walked around and window-shopped. and we ended up at the arcade catching soft toys luh. it was seriously addictive! and theres this guy who spent like more than 60 dollars playing those machines luh. he did manage to catch one or two i think. and mind u, he's like 20 plus of age la!

then E went for kidsread. so i went home and thats bout it.

oh and smth really cool/amazing happened this morning.

hahha, yeah. this is a crumb from my apple pie. i swear i didnt do anything to it. it just so happened that i wanted to clear the crumb and i saw it. pretty cool right.

thats bout it all, for now! oh happy birthday poline, and happy birthday jr.

posted by GuoRong Tuesday, November 04, 2008

. . .

training was ok today. didnt play really well for the matches tho. a lot of areas still needa be improved on.

but it just sucks to really hv put in effort, and not see the reward. well, isnt the always the case anw.

but whatever it is, we're all in this together, so i'm glad as well that other ppl are doing fine too. tho we needa speed up somemore. dun hv much time left.

pw tmr. gonna fix up op and final rehearsal on monday. everything please, go smoothly.

i guess thats bout it all.


miss sunshine, please get well soon.

posted by GuoRong Saturday, November 01, 2008

. . .