din feel like blogging but anyway. just to thank all those who wasted like 50 cents smsing me wishes. thanks to yingqian jolene tabs weehoe weiyang tracy binghao shiling zhihong zhiyang leonard andrea joyce and xiaoqin. thanks. zhi hong, kc, leonard and binghao for the shirt.and my csc, lost in 3rd round to sports sch. aloysious and shawn. i would say shawn is the much better one. me and leon played quite well la. lost 8 and 18. they werent that gd just that they din make mistakes. and that already is gd enough already lolfinals tml. yan long liucheng playing against aloy and shawn. think if i dun forget i shld be going it shld be exciting. looking forward to it. training would be 5 times a wk starting december if possible. 4 hrs a sessions and plus physical. it would be 25 hrs per wk gonna do all those shit and get champs for east zone. dun really wanna get myself bothered and troubled over stupid stuff. starting nxt yr. it would be studies and bmt. only. but i think i wun be able to just let it go.were with leon these days. he shared with me bout some stuff then we discuss and chat a lil during the bus trips. my parents liked him loads. say he veh cute always laughing one. lol.chalet was okok only. din wanted to go red house coz of some personal reason told weiyang. i dun mind staying around alone la. and it was raining so they din go afterall. they were playing the xbox. so i let them play lo since they were all so eager. so i just sat there and watch till i fell asleep. o ya we bought a watermelon back. put it in the fridge then it was cold and nice. lol couldnt find anything to open it. wanted to smash it on the ground de but we staying 2nd floor. so cannot. in the end got a knife from the girls and slice open then weiyang pry it open lol.how does it feel like to hv went that extra mile just for something simple for someone. just for a smile. but how does it feel like to not get realised for all the effort put in, to make him/her happy. and to actually get to know that it would prolly be the same without your presence.i'm certain death is far more horrible than ghosts. if death is the end of life then it's a great pity. and i really regretted not treasuring what i hv.even if it's just another conversation or just a simple word.even if it's just a simple snack she bought.even if it's just 5 mins with her presence trying hard to comprehend what she meant.even if it's just snacks that she bought.even if it's just a short walk we r going for.even if it's just dinner.even if it's just helping mum with the chores with her.even if it's something i dread to do.even if it's.....perhaps it's just another beginning instead of it being the end. with no pain and worries i'm sure thats the best of the worst already. being able to pass on with no pain and worries, with grandchilds and great-grandchild and to hv dutiful descendants crying and mourning chanting and forgoing sleep. i guess she'll be contented already.i thought of the times me and my cousins play at her old house. it was just a simple house of wood and no uptodate facilities. but the fun, laughter and enjoyment was way more than what maple or dota could provide me. being just nxt to nature and the feeling of being at home was way more satisfying. playing with cats and dogs, chickens and chicks, ducks and swan. there was no worries of bird flu or unhygenic for we were all strong and used to it. shall stop here. i'm selfish and these most precious memories of mine, i'm not sharing it with just anyone. for it contains my past, the creator of my future and present, my joy and sorrows and my every treasured times with my closest of kin.for the demise,is just another beginning.i hope.Guorong.regrets filled the airand our foots were bare.around her we walkhead bowed and noone talked.chants rang through the earsshe were so far yet so near.just in front of us she laid,eyes closed and it was all too late.no more of her voicebut we don have a choice.i would forgo any presentsin exchange for just her presence.now that she's gonewe shouldn't cry and be forlornfor she has ascended for sureand this depart is but a mere ,beginning.so stop all the tears flowingand forget bout mourning.life has to go onand the days r still long.one day we'll all betogether in the other realm, glee.right now, keep her in our hearts,quiet and reminiscing working hard.i'm no longer afraidfor i've been through the worst at the wakein memory of hermy tears are worthed. posted by GuoRong Saturday, November 25, 2006 . . .
