lost greenview. most imptly, i lost. it was my fault this time. zhi hong was really gd. i didnt noe what i was doing. i had no clue of how to play, how to place the next ball. there's just this sense of emptiness within me and all was gone in matter of minutes. we had a perfectly gd chance in the second set leading by 5 points. but, still..i was making a lot of errors. everything was so wrong. and theres just this sense of guilt and moodiness in me right now. smile ? like how ? who would feel gd after losing a perfect opportunity and worse, this is for the team. we had to win. we knew that, everyone knew that but no one mentioned it. to be frank. the moment i saw who my opponents were, my confidence lvl dropped by half alr. thats half the match lost. intimidated. i didnt give up. but i didnt fight hard enough as well. it was disappointing.while cheering for jr and zhiyang. i felt i didnt hv the right to teach and shout at them. afterall, i played so badly so what gd advice would i be able to give. in short, i just felt liek a downright loser.somehow,i think no one would understand how i'm feeling. zhihong must be hating me just now. who wouldnt. i dun feel like playing any more matches for a moment just now after the game. tears were botu to flow. but what the coach and ms tan said ltr really helepd alot. but it made me even more guilty in a sense. sigh.i just wanna talk.i think i'll study instead.cya.Guorong. posted by GuoRong Thursday, February 15, 2007 . . .
