alright, so it has been 1 wk already. slacked pretty much. haha. haven complete my hw tho. i'm left with a maths and english mag. and i haven revise my subs and study for tests yet. it'll be o's soon before u know it.nationals is starting and i'm counting down to the last training we'll be having. wonder if anyone thought of that. we're left with 3 times together, training as a team. wonder if that means anything to anyone.i'm not trying to be a spoiler and spoil everyone's hope and mood. but i think deep down in everyone's heart. no one actually thinks that we'll be able to get past 1st round for nationals. it's a pity tho. that our journey as a team is ending so fast. didnt manage to accomplish any goals. east zone champ was a failure and now nationals top 8 seemed as elusive as well.i just want everyone to treasure our remaining time together be it training or tournaments. stop the kp-ing and stuff. we've been training for 4 yrs together and this will be the last few training sessions that we'll be having. think bout it guys..looking back, i've came a long way from sec 1. when badminton was second to none in priority.sec 2, i got to know what care and concern was. i learnt what competitive badminton was all about. i got to know what it feels like to win and lose. i looked forward to trainings than anything.sec 3. i realised i needed to start studying already. we got kicked out in 1st round in east zone. i felt like a perfect loser, confused and not knowing what went wrong. i started to do well in my studies, training and training so that losing will be an option.sec 4. i came into sch feeling stronger than ever after what happened last holiday. east zone began. and we failed again to clinch champion. ...to be continued.i've learnt to be independent. no one can be there for u, with u always. best friends, gd friends, friends, class mates, team mates and such. none of them will be with u if something really happens. i've been thru it. i was at a loss of what to do. i was scared, alone. but no one was there. i was alone. facing something that has nv happened before. i felt what i hv nv experienced before. in fact, even if anyone was there, it wun make a difference. coz no one would ever know how i felt. i lost something that i could nv retrieve. everything else seemed so unimportant. results, friends, badminton, money..so i'm so not gonna depend on anyone anymore. no one was really here with me anyway and i guess i'll be fine on my own.still i wanna thank those who sms-ed me happy birthday and such. those with hv a nice day were so ironic tho. but nvm i'm still grateful more than 5 rmb-ed. it was the most i've every got tho.alright. yup, i'm alright.gonna go do my english mag now.come what may, i'm ready~Guorong, loves. posted by GuoRong Saturday, March 17, 2007 . . .
