alright, i haven't been posting for quite a while alr. so, i dun really know what to post bout now that i'm back and am free to post.it's chinese new year tmr, but somehow, it doesnt feel like it has arrived. no mood, no atmosphere, no ambience and such. for me, it's just a long break from school, some time to sleep more, to catch up on school work. i guess thats coz i aint going back to m'sia this year for cny. well, apart from that, it wouldnt be the same anymore after cny.anw, school's been really busy and exhausting. partly coz of badminton. trainings end late and by the time i reach home, i wun be awake enough to focus on my work, and my lessons dun end early so i'm not able to do my work in school too. the previous wk was filled with tough decisions i had to make. it's like, there wasnt a moment that theres nth bothering my mind. it's so taxing on the mind coz on top of brooding over these decisions, theres hw to worry bout and other stuff affecting me altogether. but i'm glad i pulled thru.it was roadrun just now. i wun say it's bad, tho it wasnt excellent as well. i went to school, having only slept 3 hrs, was preparing the sportxcel merit scholarship application till 2. then i woke up late and had to skip breakfast, then i had diarrhoea in school. i did stretched before that, but still when i started to run, i dun feel my thighs. thats one of the worse things to happen man. shortly after that, my mind was at work again. i was just running outta the main gate when visions of how far more i had to run flashed past. it's super demoralizing.i had even wanted to stop for many occasions, but i hung on, then i started going faster, coz i wanna complete it as soon as possible and get outta this misery. i tried jogging to ease my tired legs, but it didnt help, so i told myself, might as well chiong and finish it fast. however, as easy as it may sound, putting it into action isnt at all similar. but somehow, i pressed on.and smth really stupid at the last part of the race. i overtook chee siang, then i was making my way to the finishing line alr, then cheesiang sprinted, i thought we were alr very behind so, i didnt bother to challenge for that 1 position, but who knows, cheesiang got 20th and i got 21th. AND THERES PRIZES FOR TOP 20. WTF.lol, sigh, oh well, at least i didnt stop and walk and at least i won quite alot of J2s. haha! oh anw, i am really quite traumatised by the run. coz it's really one hell of a run. 5.1km i've nv ran so far till today. but i'm glad i did. haha. my legs were weak and i felt dizzy after the run, took like an hr before i got better. k so thats bout it for roadrun.life in tj has been alright. apart from the lessons, at least there are really nice ppl around. yea, and i guess i really wanna stay. alright thats bout it. cya.GuoRong posted by GuoRong Wednesday, February 06, 2008 . . .
