seriously i think i care too much la, like in both sense, the care for ppl and care bout ppl.training was gd, and i'm not there to socialise or charm ppl or show off, i'm just there to play badminton la. so i really didnt give a damn bout what the rest did.k it sounds bad. what i meant was that, i didnt let how others behaved affected me, be it they were smiling and fooling around, acting arrogant and pro, acting pitiful and the list stretches.but of course if it's under what i hv to take charge, then i have to do smth. but then again, i wonder if i'm too serious, but THEN AGAIN, this is training what, aren't we all supposed to be serious for training. k, at least to me, we are. jokes are ok la, but it gets a lil irritating when we get too relaxed and stuff.so u can go on and curse me under your breath for all you want, coz i know what i'm doing and i'm not here to please everyone. but of course i don't wanna end up standing alone too.but if i hv to, i will.training was alright tho. could see that everyone really well. but it's still not enough. u might say i'm aiming too high and it's unrealistic, but hey, if u don't try, how will u ever know u wun reach it.k so anw, i'm sry if i hv to screw your lives up sometimes. coz i really hv to.berita harian competition tmr, this time round, we're all out there to win, instead of just get exposure. so, lets see how it goes tmr.anw, sidetrack a bit. stupid pk had to ruin my day. -.- i was leaving alr la. with my wonderful loot and worms and skills and exp. and she was red when she managed to kill me luh. damnit, i suck at pvp. but then again, i guess i shld retire for gd, and just play it once in a while. it affects me too much and it's not gd.and i just wanna highlight a point that, we shld all reflect upon ourselves constantly la, like the things we say and all. i mean, sometimes before we feel or say smth, stop and think, think if thats really the truth, truth always hurt. theres gotta be a reason why someone will say smth right. the world doesnt revolve around u, neither does it, around me. so, lets not be too quick to judge, too quick to get angry.and from the moment i decided to post things up, i nv wanted to hide anything, all these were really how i felt. i cant say i'm right, but then again, think. think why i even said these stuff. u can confront me if i'm wrong. i'll be glad to listen, but i'll be glad to clarify and reason too. i'll apologize if i said smth wrong but then again, it's all what i feel. not neccessarily true, don't hv to be taken seriously and taken in wholly too.woah, thats like a big chunk. but anw, i'm comfortable with anyone reading my blog, even if it means losing friends, inviting hatred and anger, getting ostracised and hated and scolded. coz i think i'll still do fine without these ppl, aint even sure if i shld use the word, friends.i nv wanted to be an angel anw. then again, lucifer fell.but that line kinda meant that i was actually even seen as nice and angelic.hahah, not that it's totally false k !(k i shldnt be typing this, coz it's like really late -.-)wa, it's getting late. shall stop here for now.and i came across a piece of paper given to me by someone, i think it's davidtay.it's called the things in life that u need to know, u learnt them in kindergarten alr.when u're outside, hold hands, stay close and stick together. (y)all the best for tmr! posted by GuoRong Tuesday, November 18, 2008 . . .
