k, so i'm here again to just write something.it's december alr, but somehow i dont feel as tho i've really done much, played much, enjoyed much. i guess it's the trainings every wk that made it that way. like monday training, then tue will be spent resting at home, then wed training again, and it'll be mid wk alr. then thu will be resting and waiting for friday's training to come. then after that, badminton on saturday, and slack around on sunday. include mass dance sessions somewhere, and there u hv it, my schedule for a wk.yeah, it's pretty boring and considering the time i always wake up, half the day is gone even before i start doing anything. and then the cycle will repeat, sleeping late and waking up late and on and on..went to changi for dinner ytd and it reminded me of the slc times. it's supposed to be like our highlight for sportsxcel, but somehow it didnt really feel much like one. as in, it wasnt as fulfilling and exciting as i thought out to be. but then it's all too late now. what darsh said that day really made sense, she said that ironically, she didnt want slc to come, coz we all know that it'll prolly be the last thing we'll be doing and after that, we'll be stepping down and handing it on. and of course none of us would wanna pass it on without, like what david said, leaving a legacy, being part of something great, contributing to something memorable.trainings have been.. i dont know how to put it. coz if someone chances upon it, it'll prolly be unpleasant. but what i wanna say is just that, lets not wang4 en1 fu4 yi4. cant think of the english version of it right now, it's just to not forget the gd things that ppl hv done to us. like how we were allowed the chance to get into the school through appeals even though there were better players than us. i was rummaging thru my file the other day and i saw the letter of undertaking of the appeal. one of it says to give my best in the pdp i appealed thru and also in my studies, and what you will be asked to leave the school if u failed in any one of the criteria or smth.i'm very grateful for all the chances that have been given to me, a spot in the school, and even sportsxcel. so to me, it's not just bout doing it for myself, it's also like returning a favour. coz i know if not for this chance, i wouldnt even hv been in TJ.then, how bout you. think bout what u're doing, and whether it's enough, or even right.i'm feeling the shame too, unfortunately. and please don't let my effort go to waste because of things outside of my control. posted by GuoRong Tuesday, December 02, 2008 . . .
