as like any other year, 2008 has been really eventful. full of ups and downs, and first times.got back my O lvl results, was disappointed coz it wasnt up to my expectation after all that i've done. had to appeal to TJ, and this whole thing was a big irony. God made me eat my own words.then training started proper and life was super hectic. i went to sch each day half awake, and slept the other half during lectures and tutorials; my grades slipped. i felt super helpless, not knowing how i'll be able to pull through As if it remained that way.and then there was sportsxcel. first time i applied and got a scholarship and i must say sportsxcel is one of the best things that ever happened to me and i feel very proud to be part of this. i can even rmb how proud i felt when i received the cert on college day, when they announced my name and award. i felt really gd being in their company and soon we all became close and gd. it was heartwarming. and of course there was the responsibility that i had to bear too.and i made announcements for the first time. i still rmb i trembled when i went up and even when i was speaking. the feeling of mr tong standing behind u watching your every movement was indescribable. and to have to be scolded right before i go up, certainly made the experience worse. not to mention it was my first time up the podium, and i entered the school not long ago, and mr tong was so hard to handle.and then mr loh wanted me to do it not just a second time, but wanted me to do it for the rest of the season. looking back, maybe he did the right thing, overcame my stage fright and each announcement just got better than the previous day's. and i was so thankful for darsh to be alongside with me through this whole thing. and we got closer too.and there was this guy who asked if i was the announcement boy when i talked to him randomly. lol.k then, i rmb-ed how stressed i got over all school. the responsiblity that i have to carry, the many tasks i had coz of this responsibility and i wasnt doing too well in my studies, and there was badminton and so on. it was bad.then there was the exco handover issue, where i really saw the ugly side of people. and it got me thinking whether everyone is just putting on a false front. and it just added to whatever problems i had.and not to forget the people who bothered to check on me and talked to me and saw me through. <3and of course theres 1408 too. i felt super off initially coz it feels so different from sports class, different level of humour and they dont play sports too. so i didnt feel that i belonged. but just as other things, it got better and i got used to it.ok, i just realised, theres too much things for me to put down and i'm spent. so one last thing, would be the berita harian and csc competition. it was just like a dream come true, especially csc. from when i started playing competitive badminton, i've always dreamt of playing in a match like that during csc quarters, and winning it. and it feels exactly like how i did in the dream. the cheers, the crowd, the frustration and elation when u lose/win points. and it was simply amazing, the last few points when we were this close to losing. i doubt i'll ever forget that final moment we shouted and hi-5ed up in the air in front of the big crowd, of mostly strangers. and it felt even better winning in tj shirt. :)2009; the other part of the dream. posted by GuoRong Thursday, January 01, 2009 . . .
