totally ANGSTY.have you ever felt so sick and pissed off that you spent so much work on something but you cant get it.that you thought finally you can sleep earlier and that tomorrow will be better with that much more sleep, but you end up looking for 2 stacks of stupid maths paper which you need to READ for a test tomorrow. and it's not like it's going to be super effective. it's all part of the placebo effect and i'm doing it even though i know it's just placebo effect that's acting. and that it doesnt really help. but f, now it took up so much time that i'm sleeping later than usual and i dont think tomorrow will be any better than today. btw, today wasnt well too.what in the world is the world coming to. oh my world.i feel like swearing a million times over, right now. i'm so angry, with everything. nothing's helping. this is going nowhere. i know i must stop being a wimp and go on whining about how sorry or how f-up everything is. and i know how much i need and should and must move on and stop living in history pretending everything will go back to how it used to be.'how it used to be' is too overused. it never really did come true for the other 1938409183419 times i said that or wished that. this is going nowhere. have i said that alr. f. i dont really care if i did. it really is going nowhere. i'll bite you if you talk to me now. i'm serious. luckily everyone's asleep or mugging their asses off while i'm sitting in front of the screen typing my precious sleep time away hoping the next person who sees this other than me will know that i'm not in the very best of mood and not piss me further although the only way now is to appear in my dreams later on and screw things up. or unless you call me and wake me up and go something like, ' guorong, hello.' i swear i'll steal your phone tomorrow. i dont know what the hell i'm typing but i think it's making me feel a tad better just blabberring nonsense like how the world or everything is talking to me now.i never thought elisa's words will be this true. A levels is driving everyone mad. (i dont care if it's not everyone and it's just me and that i'm stereotyping if you beg to differ after reading that)i'm sick of saying, 'tomorrow will be better', ' we'll make it.'tomorrow will still suck and we'll still be where we are tomorrow. truth is, we all have ourselves to blame. ok. I have MYSELF to blame for all these. p.s i hope reversing things will help. posted by GuoRong Thursday, August 13, 2009 . . .
